I'm such a child...

[jewels44]

I want to go home... To Ottawa I mean... The only thing really keeping here is my boyfriend. I love him to no ends and I really think he could be IT. But then again, I don't see him very often, so the rest of the time I'm home alone, wishing I was somewhere else

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[nocnitsa]

Almost nothing is as you want it.

You're exactly right, talk to him. Between talks and time its amazing what people can do together - what things can change you never thought could, or would. You both have to be happy and you'll work at it together.

For the moment, for yourself, it might help to make an extra effort to meet people. To find reasons to like Montreal more. The scene, the people, the jobs, the culture.. whatever it is you can appreciate. If nothing else it will help distract you while other decisions are being made (over the months.. years..) and if lucky you really will find something there for you. Not looking for reasons to stay but instead just to not have feelings of wanting to leave.

Hold on to love until it rips you apart. Its only dead when the trying stops.

[jewels44]

I know... and that's what I'll try doing. I guess part of me just thinks it's unfair that I have to give up going home. I mean, I understand that I'm the one who moved here in the first place, that there was never any intention that he would move away from Montreal, but now I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place.

[_daniyell_]

Want to switch places? I'd love to move to MOntreal!

Being in a new city is hard though for friends. I've done it a few times and it's difficult. But you will meet more people the longer you're there. I know it's hard to be without a friend and family base though.

Ottawa and Montreal aren't that far, would a long-distance relationship be possible?

[jewels44]

I'd love to!!!

I'll stick to it for a little while longer, see what happens.

Allison has made connections for me... so I'll call up Jess and see what I might find there. Frinds? Fellow karaokee singers? Theatre people to hit the stage with?

And no, unfortunately, I really don't think the long distance thing would work. He's been here all his life. His parent's are here, his job, which he loves and has been in for twelve years, is here, and nothing he can transfer to/from, and he just bought a house in Terrebonne. I know as soon as I move back to Ottawa, I'll probably never leave it again... and I'm pretty sure he's has no interest whatsoever in ever moving to Ottawa. So unfortunately, not an option. I guess it's up to me to stay here and try to find happiness... and hope that one of these days I'll be free to go home, someway, somehow... this sucks.

[fuzzylion]

ok first things first, Bad girl for not telling me you were in town , i miss you and would have loved to at least grab a quick coffee with you.

Now as far as your post , I remember when i first moved here to ottawa , i hated it i spent every dime i hade trying to get back to montreal to visit people, it took me a long time to get used to being here, I do think you have to give montreal a bit of a chance , get out and meet some folks , i should give you ians phone number he would fix up the no friend thing right quick.

as far as your relationship , try your hardest to make it work , but remember that it is only one part of your life , and you have to do whats best for you in all aspects of your life in order to be happy.

hugs