im sweating on my fancy hollister polo shirt. i need to do my world history homework. tonight..i waited on nikis porch for gnrfnbhrodh and to get picked up. me niki and tamara..huddled under a huge blanket on nikis cold stone porch. i think the lights were on but it didnt cast out much. her yard was dark. i had been at raleighs all day. molly had ( Read more... )

adam hung out with rachel and me today. sams mad at me for it. im upset. i got to see adam though and i talked to him on the phone tonight which is cool ( Read more... )

i was with wesley. we were at the virginia center commons, or close enough to it anyways. really, we had walked behind the movies to a big forest. it's on jeb stuart road. it wasnt late but the times have made the sky turn around faster. i couldnt see everything around me too clearly, all but the path and my shirt were darkened. his hand held mine ( Read more... )

the way i look is really upsetting. why can't i just be that picture or that poster? blah blah the media is influencing me, ya...and so are real people. ive always wanted to be that way or such and such. i dunno, do you? I want to be me last year. the ease of watching the scale revolve to the other side of 90 is nauseating. i was probably already ( Read more... )

well last night i wasnt supposed to sleep over at mollys, but...#1 defeat over parents...so i did. it's cold. she dressed me and took many many pictures. more so than i thought i would have liked, yet they are pretty. imagine that. mmmm i need a shower...hmm want to see me?

( mollys photography )

all of you are reading this journal like its a newspaper. my life and my hurting? why are you so worried? what dont i know? two years from now ill probably look back and insult myself for everything around me thats important. some might want wings to get away but what would you fly away to, another life somewhere thats just starting at birth for ( Read more... )

raleigh molly and i are tottes computer junkies..at least 12 hours last night. everyone else are noobz for reals. FTW.

corey gave me a pill before school started and i popped it in first period..but thats beside this story..in english i started to feel scared that i might be too tired to walk..we took a vocab quiz and my hands were shaking so bad i could hardly write but then i did and so on to world history i went. my eyes kept going on and off near the end of ( Read more... )

that feeling when two cops are at the door knocking..and knocking..louder each time their fist hits the frame of the door is anxiety in it's highest form. in its lowest form i guess, also. me raleigh molly niki matt jesse and tom were all in jamies dads house. 6 kids that had no relation to jamie all sitting in the living room, mostly talking and ( Read more... )

fashionblowtokyo: i would say sublime