I week or so ago, I was drawn out of the shadows by Magnifelyn because there was something in her beauty and honesty that I wanted to connect with. So I posted a comment. I know that this probably does not seem like a very bold move, but after so many years of silence,it felt like a big deal. I became silent because of my work. So many students ( Read more... )

Love my beloved.
Just loving him so much lately.
Can't be loving any more than I am.
Love my beloved.

I just went upstairs to go to bed, and was standing in the bathroom looking at the scale. Then it struck me. Control. I feel like my life is out of my control, so I attempt to deal with it through these negative patterns of acting out. But, first of all, why is it so hard to exercise control in a positive way? Why can't I manifest a driving ( Read more... )

I think I'm a little depressed. It is coming out in weird food ways, and just the general fact that I am not doing for myself what I need to. But I am so tired and dragged out that I don't want to do anything, even the good stuff ( Read more... )

Today is our 6 year anniversary. Could I be any more in love with him? Doubt it ( Read more... )

I actually updated my journal yesterday, but then I hit the wrong button and it was eaten. So, long story short on that one is that I cleaned out my closte (well, part one of my closet). I am getting rid of anything that I don't like, is totally worn out, or doesn't fit. This last one is a biggie! I mean, my closet was stocked with clothes that ( Read more... )

I listen to books on tape in the car. Now I am listening to the audio recordings of this Bill Moyer series for PBS in which different groups of scholars get together to read and then discuss the stories in Genesis. Well, this morning the story being discussed was the actual creation myth. So I am listening to them read it, and it gets to the ( Read more... )

Tonight I was watching CNN. They were doing a piece on MacDill Air Force Base which, of course, is about 3 miles from the house. They were talking all about how MAFB is arguably the most important US base, as it house Central Command, all the heads of Special Forces, a lion's share of intelligence, and the fact that all war orders come from here ( Read more... )

Happy Rosh Hashanah! I would wish us all a peace-filled new year, but that might be more than we can hope for. Instead, I wish each of us peace of mind, of heart, of soul. May we each be healthy and our lives full of love.

The stress of this week has been causing my mind to dig up thoughts and images so long buried. Yesterday, while I was trying to take a nap, I saw Sara. She was tied to the bed and that fucker, what was his name? James, I think. Was tattooing her with a needle and ash from a burned brown paper bag ( Read more... )