i got a new user name or atleast for the time being, i will start to set up there ---> _ambivalent

the memory of you stays lit in my head as incesant as the flame of love ( Read more... )

i realized something, all the other people before, they were right and now i understand. you don't give a shit about me so don't even bother. narcisistic jealous fuck

*it won't be long till you'll be lying limp in your own hands*had to get that off my chest. it's amazing what you'll realize how people feel about you reading simple things not about ( Read more... )

well i feel acomplishes. i wrote an email to the schoolnewspaper advisor (my history teacher i had last year) and asked about getting into the school newspaper and such. plus i figured out how to get arround my lousy schedual so far with teachers i don't know. hopefully if it works out... i will have my freshmen english teacher again IF she has her ( Read more... )

i'm getting a new user name... i'm still contemplating what it should be... any ideas?

i can't breath. awl iubop wiuevrqw5o,i i can't even function. i can't work tonight. i might die. i can't do this. i can't sit. i have to leave. i want to leave. but 325s8. fuck now i fucking broke my keyboard. numbers don't fucking work. i don't want to live right now.

dr called and canceled our appointment today for some emergency, theres no fruit in our house and i'm sick of stairing at a wall. i want to die.

i talked to krissy tonight :-) i'm glad i missed her. i have the best friend anyone could ask for dude.

i HATE... let me emphasize this HATE when people think they can try and destroy my beliefs system, of my religion and such. i have enough trouble just LIVING and why i'm here let alone try and question how i got here and my exhistance in general. quite frankly, it scares me and i try not to think about it, bringing it up and not dropping it when i ( Read more... )

quite frankly, i feel like shit... what else is new. nothing i do it right. period. i'm never going to be good enoughi managed to fuck everything up.