anyone else find that not funny?

interesting day, started the new doc. he's really nicei think i will stick to this one :-D we talked about alot of differnt things. CARS lmao. he's got some swanky cars dude. infact 8 of them... tra la la... i'm being as honest as possible with him. he said he wants to talk to me about meds next weeek. a tad scary, but i suppose he's here to help. ( Read more... )

it's over. i'm caught. time to rewind and reteach myself control. theres no way around it now. 100 is once again the magic number.

today was okay. i wasn't mentally alive at all today. i realized something... my elctrolytes... or however you spell it... yeah they're FUCKED as anything. it was 90 degrees this morning. my hands were so cold they turned purple. it's august... this is rediculous... only me dude... only me. i was insanely light headed too. but my hands were bright ( Read more... )

I AM OFFICIALLY A WAITRESS @ ABETTER PIZZA!!!!!!!!! no more gym! no more connections! but yet in a way i'm going to miss it... i started t like it at the end, i got close to alot of the people there, but I HAVEN'T WORKED IN 3 WEEKS. i need $$ BAD. and i made 6.50 on waiting 2 tables today and that was just training. i start working for real on ( Read more... )

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i hate my mother, she makes me feel so fucking alone sometimes. SHE'S HAS THE FUCKING EVIDENCE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER, why can't she fucking believe me. my FATHER believes me. i miss my plan. i could still accomplish it, but is it worth it? sometimes i still romantasize it in my head. the true beauty in nothingness, feeding the hunger of lonliness, ( Read more... )

me and caitlin had a little too much fun tonight. had soem friends over tonight. had some stuff to drunbk. uhmmmshe's on the phone with some boy. sa b yeah./ i think i might goto find her now cause she's comnfressiong some shit to him. i feel good for once. talked to her alot... maybe about too much. i will be okay. i didn't eat anything todoay. ( Read more... )

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