I don't know if I can spend so much time with a person so self centered. As much as I love her I feel like she couldn't care less about anyone but herself or things that involve her. Usually people can fake being interested in someone else but she never does. And she always finds a way to make something about her ( Read more... )

I think its not that people are inconsiderate its just that I care too much.

-jillian

its really kind of amazing how i can be depressed in one area, leave it, be depressed in my new area and then come back to the old one and feel amazing. that make sense ( Read more... )

i am literally consoling two people at once right now.

one via facebook chat. one via phone.

do you know who is consoling me? no one.

but they need me. because if it was not for me they would have no one.

-jillian

its ridiculous how whatever it is you are doing now is making me upset. it shouldnt. i have no right to be upset about anything you do with your personal life. but i dont know, you just mentioning that you text her kind of gave me a bad feeling. and then i guess since you expected me to be all excited for you and i wasnt you sort of snapped at me ( Read more... )

the beginning of Garden State is exactly how i feel. all the time.

Bones, sinking like stones ( Read more... )

i have something that could be called another journal. sadder than the sadness book. and anyone that has ever read the sadness book would know, thats really fucking sad ( Read more... )

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[30 Jan 2010|04:59pm]

she said.

"you know what i find adorable and amusing about you?"

sigh. what?

"your determination to always warn people about yourself."

sometimes i feel like my life is one big disclaimer.

"it seems like a lot of work."

i feel its only fair to give everyone the chance to run away first. god, if that isnt the ( Read more... )

i just had a sudden urge to be an artist again today. i dont know. i never really shot any fashion type things before really. i mean, i always just kind of did things in my own way but i did some legit stuff that i actually aspire to shoot and i think i did a good job! i mean, i was so excited today while editing. i was dancing to Britney and heal ( Read more... )

"Okay, I feel better now."

There is nothing to me ( Read more... )