kay, so im back.. had fun.. i guess you could say ( Read more... )

man, i didnt think a few weeks here would ever be 'akward' or.. upsetting. don't get me wrong. i like it here and i dont want to leave early or anything.. but.. ugh.... we had a conversation a a couple nights ago.. and i don't think he understood what was wrong.. i understood what was bugging him.. but... like i said .. ugh ( Read more... )

so im sitting here pretty bord. just waiting to see if josh will come on.. cuz he said he might come on later.. but im only waiting till 12:30. Im at that point where im so tired im not tired. and i dont want to go to bed just yet..cuz my bed likes to kill me in my sleep. i can't stand it ( Read more... )

i have this song stuck in me head.. and i keep listening to it.. mainly for only one reason.. and its because someone told me to download it because it reminded them of me.. and i miss them cuz im a loser. cuz i talked to them just a few days ago. lol. yes im cool. and possibly obsessive but i can't help that i miss the person.. like comeon! ( Read more... )

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well, been a rough couple days.. pretty brutal i you ask me. I finaly got to talk to him yesterday bcause he came online. it was a hard converstaion.. but only after a couple minuteson the conputer he suprised called me i guess cause he could see i was crying cuz i was hiding my face with my hair. i went outside to avoid my mother and her questions ( Read more... )

so.. as i write this i am a complete wreck. my nose is runny and my eyes are red. crying for the past little while. wondering what the right thing to do is... i know what someone is pushing me to do and personally i can't bring myself to do it.. it may be one less comitment but it's one that i am not ready to drop. selfish? maybe.. but i can't... i ( Read more... )