It feels nice but weird to have money at my disposal. I spent 170 or so dollars last night and instantly replaced it. Felt really good ( Read more... )

-4 again. Woo. Passed the 80 pound mark. Maybe I can hit 90 by the half year mark ( Read more... )

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this song makes me really sad.

it comes up on the radio a lot.

:(

( I'm Fuckin' Awesome )

-4. Very surprising, but good.

I took some NyQuil and went to bed around 2. I feel quite a bit better. I actually feel rested for the first time in forever.

It still upsets me that I can't be there. Or that I'm not already there. I didn't realize that that was still going to be an issue. Welp, back to not knowing what to do or how to feel. Fuck.

More realizations later and I'm feeling even better. I'm still going to try and get some form of therapy, however.

I'm feeling really good. I hope this keeps up. No, I know it will.

I think the main thing is, I've got to stop 'caring'. It doesn't really matter what other people think. I've got to stop projecting what I think they think on myself ( Read more... )

guess i'll look into therapy. i don't understand this. i can manage to drop 74 pounds with a simple change in mentality, but i can't beat this. it makes me feel pathetic ( Read more... )

-3. 74 pounds. I posted about it on facebook and accidentally said 79 pounds there. Woops. Counted wrong ( Read more... )