i think i'm better. with a little help from a friend. although I think i completely trashed things, whatever. nothing i can do about it now, its all out there.

if i dip again, i'll just seek professional help. i can't afford it, and it's guaranteed to ruin me financially for awhile. but maybe it'll help ( Read more... )

so before entering DREAM FESTIVAL yesterday morning, i realized that i'm still miserable. but I thought long and hard about it and figured out.. I have no idea why I feel this way. I mean there were some obvious things that I figured out, but if I were to bring them up I think I'd only make things worse; in the situation, and how I feel. I really ( Read more... )

-1. Kind of disappointed. Will have to make it up. Next. Week.

Didn't win shit on my lotto tickets. Oh well.

I've been having really long and crazy dreams for the past week. Hell, I have trouble even GETTING to sleep. And then I dream the entire time while sleeping really heavily. I've woken up feeling like crap every day.

I hit some sort of magical uplift last night and now I feel incredible. Just.. so much better, lol. I don't know what to do or where to go from here, but I don't really care! My future feels relatively open, despite the fact of not much changing. It could be that I was just looking at things in the wrong light; I'm a negative person. Maybe that was ( Read more... )

went to try and find a new outfit for myself and a jacket. i found a jacket, but outfit finding did not go well at all, and now I feel very discouraged. Pretty much disgusted with myself, and can't stand seeing myself anymore ( Read more... )

They put me back up to full time hours at work, which is both a good and a bad thing. I'm gonna miss that extra hour of sleep ( Read more... )

i said what I needed to say

and i feel a lot better because of it.

-5. Awwyeeah.

kidney pains, a fever, and a headache. Now i'm physically aaand mentally feeling like shit.

woopie.

I had a lot of fun at the marvel vs capcom 3 midnight launch.

Still in a funk. I hate this. It's only getting worse every day. I don't think it's going to get better, either.