Too much, Too much

[jjbop]

So life is getting to be to much again. I just want everything to stop for a day. I don't want to worry or to get upset or mad for one day, but thats not going to happen. Peace and quite for me is just too much to ask I guess. I'm sure most of you know by now I spent my spring break at the hospital with Sean, being the stubborn boy that he is, he

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[littelisa6918]

hey hun,take it one day at a time with him...i felt that way for a long time....the whole "providing thing"it's not a fun feeling.i would imagine it would be a lot worse for a guy and he is a sensitive guy so it will be really bad.just be there hun.he is trying to crack jokes and shit cuz he feels like shit.you need to lighten up sweetie.being there is all you need to do.i know he is hurting you with the things he is saying but just keep in mind that,thats just sean....he has always been this way hun.go back and read some of your jl's....you always let yourself get hurt by his words.let it go hun.just be there.show him you love him.get your shit done and you have to try and take his shit.he loves you and you know it...your both just going thru a hard time right now.it will work out....don't worry hun....

[jjbop]

I know, life is just taking a lot out of both of us. His tooth thing is done now and he is getting back to work so as he starts to pay me back a little at a time I know he will start feeling better.

I still don't know what to do about school, if I had only one option it would be easier, but I can choose to cut off my arm or cut off my leg...I just don't know which onbe would be better so to speak.

My grandpa is in the hospital too now. They thought they could do something easy to fix him, but then they also found a mass on his lungs. We are not sure if it is infection or cancer... and Sean's grandparents are not doing good and this will be his first major death so he is flipping out, which I can understand. The first one is always the hardest.

Life is just very stressful right now, thats all.