it's been a while since I updated. Not that anyone reads this thing anyway, but ill update it just in case someone floats in. My brother's CD was released the other day. It sounds absolutely nothing like him. It's my favorite song by him (its on a compilation CD). So we move on to the inevitable subject of Aubrie. Haven't talked to her in about a ( Read more... )

I never thought that it would be this hard to let go. I don't think I'm going to be able to. I just finished crying for about 30 minutes. I was listening to the radio and "Fall to Peices" ~ Avril Lavigne came on and I lost it. I can't stand the thought that the one person in this world that I want to spend the rest of my life with is gone. I feel ( Read more... )

well this sucks. I havent heard from Aubrie in almost two weeks. I finally give up I guess. There's nothing I can do. I can't make up her mind for her. I'm pretty fuckin depressed today. I left her a voicemail and emailed her telling her that I wont be communicating anymore unless she calls or writes me back. I just can't do it. It hurts too much. ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck is going on in Aubrie's head. One day I get like 5 emails form her telling me how much she wants to come down here, that she wants to move, etc. etc. etc. Then the next 10 days go by, no emails, no nothing. I call her, she doesn't answer the phone. It's like What The Fuck. I don't want to think that she's playing head ( Read more... )

I sure do miss Aubrie, I wish she would come down, I need her here, bad. I found out that a very good friend of mine is unexpectedly pregnant. She doesn't know who the dad is (1 of 2) guys. She is going to have an abortion, but I know that she wants to keep it, but she's not thinking about the long term. I wish I could make her see that she doesn't ( Read more... )

badly needed update.... Well, my car needs an entire new engine. because it costs so much to replace, it might get totalled out, in which case I would get a whole new car. YAY. If that's the case Im thinking Audi A4 Cabriolet, BMW 5 series, or Mercedces CLK. Something nice. But, we're not there yet, so we'll see ( Read more... )

What do you do when you realize that the love of your life may be out of your raech, and that you may have put them there. I feel almost as if I have lost Aubrie before I've even gotten her. Every time I talk to her I get that feeling in the pit of my stomach that I want to feel for the rest of eternity. I dont ever want to live another day without ( Read more... )

I am so fucking confused right now, I think Aubrie may be schitzophrenic. Not literally, but figuratively speaking. One day she calls me and says that she is tired of Nashua, and the people, and the lack of oppurtunity in life there, that she wants to come down here REALLY BAD, and then the next minute she's telling me that she can't leave her job ( Read more... )

ya know what, no. Im not gonna give up, it aint over till its over, and i still havent heard from her what she wants to happen now. I talked with my mom about it tonight and she suggested that I go up there to find out from her what is going on. There are so many unanswered questions in my head. I know that I love Aubrie, and I need to know 100% ( Read more... )

Well, I just found out that Aubrie is back together with ehr ex-boyfriend Mike. I hope she's happy. I hope he treats her the way that she deserves to be treated. I guess it was just to good to be true. 6 years i waited, and within two months I told her how I felt, found out that she wanted to see where things went and then got my heart broken. So, ( Read more... )