I asked her on a serious level if she was happy and she told me yes and told me that i didnt make her happy. I dont know what else to do to make her happy. I mean i know we fight but there are some great times and iono how she can just blow them all away. I care about her so much and iono. I just need to let go cause she dont want me. She dont ( Read more... )

I dont know how to feel. One min im fine and the next it feels like im working on a losing battle. I mean i dont have that much to offer. I mean my car use to be nice and then it started falling apart. But it didnt matter cause i got to see her. I am going back to college i just wanted to wait for her to come. I cant say i go to a good school or i ( Read more... )

Things have changed and i dont know what to do anymore. I thought it would be ok and i would be there for support. I tryed to hold her but it didnt work. I either made her to hot and i got her some cold water and a wet rag to cool her down. Then she was cold and i was tryin to hold her but she insisted that i didnt. I dont know how to act. I only ( Read more... )

Well its been about a week for me to write. I have been working alot this week and we only get today and tomorrow off till we have to go back to work. Its been ok.. alot of hours and its hard on my knees to stand on them for about 10 hours. But i need the money and its a good experiance for me and meagon. I mean its teaches us to live and work and ( Read more... )

Well tonight was kinda weird i guess. Meagon and i went to akron with friends of ours. Well shes not my friend cause i dont know when her b-day is as meagon would put it. But i have known about her and known her longer then meagon so whatever she says i ignore it. Cause she is my friend. I have always thought Lisa was cool and never had a problem ( Read more... )

I couldnt sleep last night and i didnt get to sleep till about 8. When i finally got meagon to go upstairs to sleep i heard my phone ring. It was my mother bitching about sending some fwd to my grandma and it having e-mail addresses in it that contained the word "lesbian". She was cryin i guess cause she doesnt want her to know im gay. I dont ( Read more... )

Well it has been a long time since i have wrote in here. Alot of stuff has happen since the last time i wrote. The person i meet at the end of the journal is now the love of my life. I wouldnt know what to do with out here. We have been together for about 7 months coming up and i hope many more to come. Her name is Meagon and she 16 almost 17. I ( Read more... )

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