so today was pretty great. i stayed home from school and me and my mom sat on our butts watching soap operas and csi hahaha wooo.

Everything that mattered 2 years ago is of no significance to me now. I fear that one day I'll want to go back and read my old magazines and then just realize that I've thrown them all out. I don't know why I've always insisted on keeping them. Well obviously, whenever I fall in love again, someone's always in a magazine from 5 years ago and I can ( Read more... )

70 THiNGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME ( Read more... )

I think I just keep repeating myself ( Read more... )

I think life's funny when you can have fun with your friends and laugh and be yourself, then you walk away and all of a sudden there's shit talking. Is there anyone trust worthy in this world? Is it possible? Why do we have to fake it every day of our lives? Are we all selfish assholes who are only looking out for ourselves? Ponder that and then ( Read more... )

Sometimes everything gets too hard to handle. Sticking it out is what you're supposed to do. Sometimes I get too tired to do all of that. I think I'm bi-polar. That has to be it.

I hate caring more than everyone else.

I feel like I'm losing everyone.

I guess it's all my fault.
Cause apparently it always is.

Sometimes I can't tell if I'm being geninune or I'm so good at faking it that I've made myself believe. Days like this make me question myself. I like how I can be mad at someone for something, but when it comes down to it, I forget everything when I see them face to face. I like how I can break so easily when I try to make myself seem like I'm ( Read more... )

Every little thing I do now has to thought of carefullly incase it might strain my parents. We have nothing. Actually we have less than nothing. Pretty soon we'll have to be faced with the fact of whether or not we'll have to move out of the only house I have ever known. Pretty soon I will have to forget my selfishness and became an adult. Change ( Read more... )

I've finally realized why I've been so sad lately. Jayson's here right now. I think it took him coming to visit for me to realize everything. With Jayson I was in love with the fact that he was like a big brother to me. He bought me things, he took me places, I grew up so much in the 4 (or 5 whatevvv) years that I've known him. I wasn't ready ( Read more... )

With the expectations I once had for myself, I can now say that I am a mess & a failure. everyday I wake up & think about an outfit for the day. More thoughts go into that rather than the test I am about to fail. I pride myself on my humor. IF i had a heart, everyone would no longer think I was funny. I cry when someone critizies me in the ( Read more... )