I had something really interesting to write about. Alas, I have forgotten. So I'll write about other things.

Yesterday I found out that I really won't have this job much longer. The Big Boss Man himself came down and told me everything I do my job with is moving to Seattle. He also said I still have a job, which is good, but he just does'nt know ( Read more... )

Everyone is gone now. Their last day was yesterday. I walk in and all the lights down here were off. I'm the only one now. Talk about solitude. It's so quiet. I did'nt cry yesterday. I thought I was going to. I don't know why. Lately I have'nt been able too. Like, I'll even be watching a really sad movie. One I feel that I should be crying for, and ( Read more... )

God I suck.
I just don't understand why I get these feelings for people.
I hate feelings, but then relize hate is a feeling and hate them even more.
Why do I like him?
Dumb.

This is getting to be so hard. I hate the feeling of lying to so many people that I'm close to. I don't understand why I can't tell. I feel like such a bad person. Then I also feel like if I do tell them, then they might hate me. Damnit. I'm even having a hard time asking my manager questions about what's going to happen aftter she's gone. Like, ( Read more... )

So this weekend was full of turn of events. So on Friday, my entry was because my departmnet had a meeting. It was about how the company was getting rid of us so we're loosing are jobs. That sucked. I was pretty upset but then got over it and went and saw Tristan and Isolde with Mi Kacy. Wonderful movie I might add. Saturday my and the family went ( Read more... )

Today, Friday the 13th I mind you, just happens to be the worst day ever. As of right now.... I hate life. I mean, what the fuck am I ganna do now? I have nothing. It's going to end up like it used to be, but it should'nt. Maybe even a little worse. Gah. I need to scream, but I can't. I'm not ready to come out and say what exactly is going on. I'm ( Read more... )

I'm not exactly sure why I'm writing. Just waisting time befor lunch I guess. I should be doing closing orders. But I'm not. I'm pretty lazy when it comes to those. Mitch just sneezed. He sneezes really really loud. Not even funny, just annoying. I think he's seriously crazy. But who am I to talk? I question my sanity everyday. Although, I find it ( Read more... )

I think I'm finally coming into the relization of how much of a struggle I really am in. These past few weeks it's been getting more and more clear. I can feel it inside. I've been tryin to fight it for too long. I just need to give in. It's best for me and I know it. I need it back in my life. I feel empty with out it. I've been trying to fill it ( Read more... )

So uh.. yea. I had a really good wekend I might say. I did'nt drink. I just gambled until 4 in the morning. Lol. It was actually really fun. I watched a bunch of movies. I love movies. I went to church. I think I'm starting to get into it. Slowly, but surely. Nick finally came over for dinner. Yea, I want to marry him. Haha. He's like.... so.. wow ( Read more... )

I'm so happy for tonight. If everything goes as planned I'll be gettin nice and wasted.*sigh* Not laid though. Oh well, maybe some other time. Haha. Yea, I'm just hanging out with the girls tonight. We'll just be playing poker and drinking and yea. I'm excited. I have'nt drank since that halloween party. Ashley invited me to go party with her. I ( Read more... )