After I went back to sleep I ended up having a few dreams. They are strange and I will not put thought into them, but I will tell you them and if you ready my deviant I might put one in my story ( Read more... )

Okay, updates! First i just got bac from my physical therapy and i am doing twice as good as last time and nears five times as good as my first real day!!!! Then the house is quite... no fightts are ragging right now which makes this a pretty good day. I miis my Dares a while bunch and cannot wait for her to get bac so i can like steal her!! heh. ( Read more... )

I think that I know what this new feeling is. I think i know its gonna last. I know i want it to be that way. I love him, I really do. This is all so new, at first it wa terrifying, scary... cause me to wait for the punch line. Now i see that there may not be a punch line, that there may just be happiness from now on. I love it. I can completely ( Read more... )

 To look up and see the stars that are so bright in the dark night just would not be the same with out you there to guide me. To look in your eyes with out ever woundering why is the most magical thing. To be with you lets all the problems fade and this lif seem sain. But having to wait to see you once more is such agony. To have to let the days ( Read more... )

My great grandpa is in the hospital AGAIN. And i cant visit him because of my weak immunsystem that the docs gave me by giving me meds i didnt need. and my parents are now staying in the hospitall as much as possible.... each time he goes to the hospital its something else... now i really just wanna go numb... fully totally numb... he's one of the ( Read more... )

Here's just thoughts and feelings and i don't care if thy make sense... and please do not take them personally or try to understand them but i just have to type them out...

Feelings: hurt, happy, hyper, sad, confused, annoyed, Grawor.
happy: i spent the day with friends and today.
hyper: just had 1/2 a pint of ice cream....
confused: False hope, and ( Read more... )

I want to be his bella.... like insainly bad!!! heh. i'm sooo happy that we talked last night... like really talked!! i just wonder if today will be the same, or if it was just a one time thing. I miss him already, which is sooo sad, but i cannot wait to talk to him again. Today at my house we're making strawberry Jam.... its gonna b fun... ( Read more... )

ok. happy!! i am being open and honest and it feels great... i never thought i could feel this way... or atleast not again.. but i do... ty sooo much cidra... TYTYTY!!! heh.. ok, well thts all for now /hugzz!!! love ya cidra!!! ladda

This may not make ANY sense so personally if i was u i wouldn't even try... but its ur own puragative i guess...

OK... heh i like him nd i think he amy ike me but i also think he's in love with a best freind which drives me crazy cuase i am head over heals for him, but i cannt tell him that because i dont want to upset him or anything because the ( Read more... )

i kno, its not worth the eartache... ot worth the trouble... i wiish tht i understood y i felt this way... but idk... today in hem i nearly broke down meerly bcause he was brought up 3 times... its PA-THE-DIC... but if he asked i'd lie about the feeling held within... miss him i do, but i knew.. i saw it commin all along... http://www.youtube.com/ ( Read more... )