Ever since I heard my aunt died, ive been keeping it inside. I haven't expressed any grief of any kind and its been killing me. I deal with the loss of loved ones in what could be the worst way possible... repression. It was fine the first day, but now i can't sleep, i can't smile, i can't think ( Read more... )

For the first time in 4 years i have 0 credit card debt ( Read more... )

hmm well there is quite an update ( Read more... )

Fuck it, i give up. on everything. Fucking take me now and get this hell over with.

I have a date tonight. Fancy.

Horse the Band was awesome. I almost got in a physical confrontation. Started work at Pizza Place. My sister is engaged. Hung out with Lindsay from Lucid Soule. Rediscovered the awesomeness that is pez. Learned life lesson. Got on some new meds. Redisconered myself. Reinvented said discovery ( Read more... )

So it was a long and hard fight, but i tihnk i finally pieced myself back together. I'm employed, I'm not heartbroken anymore, i have my home-life situated, my anxiety under control. Its nice. Maybe i can start getting ready for when that special-someone comes into my life, but God, she better not come into it anytime soon. I'm not quite ready to ( Read more... )

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I guess its true what they say, hurt people can only hurt people ( Read more... )

I have a near-obsessive tendency of somehow fucking up anything good that ever comes into my life.