i'm so retarded depressed right now. i wish i had something to be sad about, but really i just have that oh so familiar feeling of everything being wrong and not knowing what to do about it because in reality nothing is wrong. i feel dirty and sick and i want to go home. if only i knew where home was. i feel ridiculous sitting here at school ( Read more... )

i am wishing for nothing more right now than to have a couch to nap on while watching crappy vh1 kitch shows. just a few more days, and this dream will be mine.

oh please tell me i'm doing the right thing. staying here another year is what i should do, right? i guess i have no choice at this point, but i feel like every day i stay here is wasted. i feel so uninspired here. this place makes me unhappy.

"It's my belief that history is a wheel. "Inconsistency is my very essence" -says the wheel- "Rise up on my spokes if you like, but don't complain when you are cast back down into the depths. Good times pass away, but then so do the bad. Mutability is our tragedy, but it is also our hope. The worst of times, like the best, are always passing away"

tomorrow is 666 (june 6th of 2006) so something awesome better happen damnit. that is all.

i have the weirdest most sour taste in the back of my mouth right now. it's been going on for two days now and nothing seems to make it go away. i thought it was probably due to a hang over that i had yesterday, but i didn't drink last night and it's still with me today. does anyone know what could possibly be causing this??? its so gross!!

up and down, up and down, up and down. my emotions are leaving me feeling a tad bit sea sick. i want him back, i want him dead, i don't want him to forget me so easily. i want the future, i want the past. i need to figure out what i'm doing. one more night, two more hours, two more days, five more days, three more months, one more year, i can' ( Read more... )

i'm living in a musical wasteland!! not one, NOT ONE of the matador artists that are touring this summer is coming anywhere near me. and this is just an example!! there are plenty of other great labels with great bands that are choosing to steer clear of the midwest this summer as well. its a good thing i'll have no time or money for shows, or ( Read more... )

in MY opinion, if you're walking around singing "american music" by the violent femmes and no one that you work with knows what you're singing, then there is something seriously wrong with where you work and probably where you live. just sayin.

season six of the west wing is coming out on dvd may 9th. i almost just want to buy it and go to austin for the weekend because watching it without matte is going to make me sad. of course, that's not going to stop me.