well i haven't updated this thing for like 20 days or something of that sort. well im still dating ricky and he is awesome. its kind of like a dream. ive liked him for a long time on and off (more on then off) and i always had a feeling that he liked me back but never knew for sure. and then over summer break we kind of talked and it was kind of ( Read more... )

well im at school sitting in spanish "studying" for a test next week. i really dont want to be here and its really boring. i havent written in here for a long time. but its all good because now i am writting in here. ricky and i are really good. yesterday was 2 months. if we make it another month then it will be the longest relationship ive ever ( Read more... )

i hate rumors and people who start rumors! and it seems that one of my friends is involved with them. which is def not cool. i mean if your friends with someone you're not supposed to start rumors about them. specially when they arent even close to the truth. i just dont know what to do about this "friend" i mean i have been friends with her since ( Read more... )

i cant believe that summer is almost over. i dont want it to be but at the same time i do so i can finish school asap. this summer also hasnt been what i thought it was going to be. its mostly been boreing watching the little kids that i got paid to do and sleeping at night. it was almost like i was at school getting up early like 7 and getting ( Read more... )

i havent worked in like 3 days but its really not a real job so i guess that it doesnt count really. but i do get to work 2 more days before i go to band camp. yipee. im actually starting to get excited about going to band camp. i mean i get to conduct like 3 minutes in the show so thats good right considering the show is like 7 minutes long. so im ( Read more... )

well the guitar learnin has been alright. im gettin better than i thought i could get so thats good. i dont want to go to band camp anymore. i dont even want to do it anymore. i just want to be a kid that doesnt do anything. my parents suck and my brother wont leave me alone. i almost threw up last night but didnt and now i feel like im gunna again ( Read more... )

i went to an sat class today. it wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be. i have to go back to work tomorrow. yipee... NOT!! i dont want to work anymore but I only have 6 more days so it isnt that bad and i might buy a snowboard with the money i make i dont know yet. i mean if i get accepted to app i might go buy one bc ill be like 10 minutes ( Read more... )

its been a long since i updated this thing... a lot has happened since i updated it last. i got a wonderful boyfriend named ricky. hes my best friend. even before we dated we were like best friends and were inseperable. it was kinda funny actually. the best thing about it is that i dont have to act like someone else when im around him because we've ( Read more... )

i went bowling today. it was fun. i havent called will in like 2 days. oh well. maybe he will think i died. im going to carowinds tomorrow. i went to the pool today. i lost 3 contacts today. it really sucked. my cousin jumped into the pool today and landed on my head. that hurt. im leaving in like 3 days for vacation. yipee. so happy. no computer ( Read more... )

well you know how you have a plan and you think everything is going according to plan and then all of a sudden the plan is radically changed. well this is what has happened over the past few days. its kinda an on going thing that i always try to ignore, but how can you ignore feelings? its kinda hard. exspecailly when they are this strong. ugh. why ( Read more... )