its a first i have nothing to say...

i want to die...

i dont even know what to say anymore. i just used to have so much life in me and used to be the life of the party so to speak all of the time. its like my fire has been put out but im still here. it doesnt make sense. i dont understand this at all ( Read more... )

i spent a lot of money in one day. holy crap! i cashed a check i got awhile ago and decided to treat myself to some taco bell. which was real good by the way. and then i decided that i should go get that invader zim dvd that i have been wanting so i got that and while i was there i decided to get the new avril cd and the new hoobastank cd. then my ( Read more... )

its been a long time since i last wrote. like 6 days i think. well since then it has been an emtional rollercoaster. i like rollercoasters but i dont like emotional ones. somedays ill be happy other days i would be sad. but no one could ever tell bc i hid it from everyone. i mean there are some people you can talk about depression to and there are ( Read more... )

today was interesting... the girl i babysit i think hates me and i know the little boy does. well he does sometimes and i know this bc he says "i hate you!" and then cries and runs to his room but he comes out evenutally and were like best friends. well they are gettin on my nerves and i want to quit but i NEED money bc im in debt real bad to my ( Read more... )

too early......... to be up....... and i dont even have to be to work for like another hour and a half..... ugh ( Read more... )

oh my fucking god... my brother and i just got in the biggest fight in my entire life... and well i gave up first. im still shakin and this happened like 20 minutes ago. i already have a bruise on my arm and it hurts and so do my knuckles (sp?). i think i might have broken one of my fingers i dont know yet. ill find out tomorrow. i almost sliced ( Read more... )

Today would be fathers day. and also the will's birthday ( Read more... )

i really dont have much to say right now. i havent really done anything today. i went out with friends last night. i saw will. hes funny. a party in my mouth. hee hee. that was funny. dont ask. liz and patrick thought he was the coolest which is good bc they are like my best friends ( Read more... )

well work today was..... interesting i guess you could put it. i dont like it very much too much variation i guess. but whatever its money that i need to pay my parents back. ugh. debt ( Read more... )