you know, i really hate today. I dont know why. I love the fall, it always has me in a great mood. But today i hate. I havn't stepped outside yet, i'm freezing, everyone in the world seems to be depressed today. So what am I supposed to do. I really dont want to go to work and am seriously contemplating calling in. But then who would run the lab? ( Read more... )

i got a new car! well, i guess its not really new, its used, and i actually used to own it, its that little black honda civic i had for a while. I bought it off my brother. So thats exciting! It a heck of a lot better on gas then my pontiac was! I wish Elder Aivez a good bye yesterday, he's going home and i'm going to miss him. But Ellen and I are ( Read more... )

so here i sit ( Read more... )

You Felt like a motion picture.
It's just a matter of where you are when you're awake.
When you fall asleep this music will end. Forget everything. Your dreams will. REMEMBER RIGHT NOW.

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i get to see Phantom Planet on Friday!

its getting closer till i have to leave, i feel like i just got here, i dont want to go. I just want to be able to stay with the gitl i love, not having to leave and be away from her. Its not fair. I have to go back to my job, my boring life. At least i will have my freinds. i do miss them. And Video practice. That will be fun to do again. ( Read more... )

Ellen is at work right now, so i'm entertaining myself, you know watching t.v, making myself at home, thats where i like to think i am, it feels enough like it. I love being here. I wish i never had to leave. Tonight we are going to a little get together with friends, should be fun, and tomorrow we are probably going to a rennisance fair, how cool ( Read more... )

we went to NYC yesterday and bought all kinds of awesome clothes. I love clothes, and shopping for them. And what better place to do it in then NYC. Ellen took me to see FIT, it would be nice to go to college there. I wouldn't be far from ellen either, wich would be awesome. My legs are killing me though, we walked a lot, we didn't take the subway ( Read more... )

We are hanging out with the sister missionaries today, its is going to be awesome, then we are going bowling! Yeah! It already feels like i have always been here, like i never left in the first place. Gosh , i love being here.

So, i'm here, if anyone wants to now, here as in New york, with my sweetie. And loving it, we are going to have so much fun. Its is going to be awesome, i cant believe i live without her, i love it here, gotta go, mom needs help.

today i sat at work, wanting nothing more than to curl into the fetal position and cry. I could only think about the future, and how i dont think i'll ever survive. Life never seemed this hard...i dont know why i'm seeing this now. But, there is no way i could posibly survive. People are too mean, life to way too dificult. I cant do it. I have no ( Read more... )