Popped on this evening to read over a few entries,i was spurred on by a text from My friend Andrew who texted me asking if i was ok and hadn't gone mad after reading them.I didn't really enjoy reading them at all seeing how bad i must have felt was awful and glad i cannot remember what i was going through last week and the week before,time seems to ( Read more... )

I'm really fed up about my birthday already,Steven can't make thursday cause hes at a meeting but coming to Leeds,Sarah i told to late,George is in his own world and a couple o others are off on a weekend break to london and Ewa is on a staff do and Pauls working late.Me and Steven and Kevin went essential last night and i was very very drunk,i ( Read more... )

Well i can safety say this week has ended with its usual dosage of people having dramas around me,people getting off with people they shouldn't (mainly me)disapointments,me texting people to tell them everything is fine or other things,many units of alcohol consumed and of course shopping for non required items.The week started with me in a very ( Read more... )

 Todays drawing to a close and i feel much better about things i had an appointment this morning with a very nice lady about the state of   my mind and the lack of screws i felt are still attached to it,I discussed last week and before that and rabbited on from half eight till ten without much pause to stop,the words just didn't stop!At the end i ( Read more... )

IFeel like i have woken up from a five day break in hell,i know i had fun but something went wrong along the way i'm worried whats being said about me now and realised i defend everyone else when things are said but i doubt people jump to my defense as quick.I'm going to go off the radar for quite some time now possibly have a few weeks off away ( Read more... )

Weeks been varied and i have actually awoken and worried for my behaviour,i haven't eaten in three days but am not so worried about that,my recollection of anything since Thrusday night is very blank but i know i had a great night,Me,steven,George all ventured out we met Dee,Kai,lee and others on various points and i took my new camera out and ( Read more... )

Been a while since i last popped on here so thought time i updated it so i got something to read back on in time,.Weeks been varied although can happily report no family drama occurred on easter day,i finished work came home and cooked a roast for me and my sisters (my mums away again in the lakes with her friends and i am working in the business ( Read more... )

What a fantastic night i have just come home from,it was indeed a very fantastic night out,everybody emerged out of no where,it waslike the Manchester/Bolton family had made a reunion! we had a great time with laughs,drinks some strippage (myself stripping for a bet)We all went to essential like years ago and got totally wasted,we did break up and ( Read more... )

Nine years have passed since i lost my brother,Yesterday i popped to his grave and felt a sharp twang of guilt,firstly cause i have gone down days after the aniversary and not on it.I guess i was just avoiding the pain i knew would re surface,i wish it got easier sometimes but it seems to get harder each year and with every time i think about what ( Read more... )

What a varied but quite productive weekend,I have managed to get Danny and his ex on a level of talking,Cara also popped in a apologie to him which really did mean something after her calous way of dobbing him in for cheating,yes i didn't agree with it either but she was meant to be his best mate.Spent this morning proactively chatting to some guys ( Read more... )