still working...things are still hard. still trying to survive. Im eating bad foods..i have gained alot of weight. i feel gross and back to the old...i wish i was skinny, joanna...im paying for a gym membership that i never use..i dont have the time..i need to make the time ( Read more... )

things are better...im clearly going to state that its because im working three jobs and dont have the time for anything other then music, friends and working. Making enough money to survive on..its working right now. My friends are amazing and my music making has put me at new levels...im slowly learning how to cope ( Read more... )

somedays are better then others, naturally. Today im lost. Not sure of how i feel about the events unfolding around me. Not sure if im upset, envious or just plain sick of where I am. These days i have to make myself happy but forcing a smile. Forcing myself to enjoy and really love the things that keep me going every day. Like my jobs...yea..JOBS ( Read more... )

sometimes i hate my "old" friends....Mostly because they always seem to choose the "New" been around for a month friends over the ones who have been around since 5th grade....there through the tears, the drama, school...parties...life ( Read more... )

i go to ohio next week...im really excited. i cant stop thinkin bout how much fun i have with mikes family..its going to be a great time

mike is sick right now...im getting whatever he has

SO SUCKY

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i hate my job. i hate my boss...i hate the stress of this place. i cant handle the bitching and moaning and swearing and...HIS FUCKING MOUTH. im sick of his shit, im sick of this place. i hate it. hate hate hate it ( Read more... )

it never gets better..i swear. just when you think you have hit a mile stone in your relationship. when you think you have come to the point where its...stay together and work hard...or separate and move on alone...you hit that wall. where it doesnt matter which way you go..life still fucking SUCKS everything it has out of you. Why does it have to ( Read more... )

i need to be more positive ( Read more... )

and i dont really care if they do. i just write because im bored..and i think i need to get things out that i cant normally talk about out loud.. mostly because not many people like to sit and listen to be rant and rave about how i feel. the important things get heard..the others fall to the back of my mind, and i find myself sitting here for 15 ( Read more... )