I have relocated my journal to http://www.livejournal.com/users/thedarkoeffect/

My screen name is now thedarkoeffect28

My email is thedarkoeffect@hotmail.com

Have an effin awesome day!

This quote was seemingly profound: a comparison between the purpose of bees and orchids and the purpose of human existence ( Read more... )

Its effin Turkey Day. And that is effin awesome. I eat till Im to beat to stand on my feet. oh and on a side note for the next bball game at Estero...40 ON THE COURT!

Half-Life 2 is awesome! Counter-Strike:Source is awesome! And spending all day in front of the computer playing them is awesomely sad. Tomorrow the new 61" HDTV comes and the old 61" comes into my computer room...possibly even a cable line as well. I'm never going to see the sun again.

Im in that place where pain can't follow...to bad it's temporary.

Have you ever stopped to notice how awesome a car is? With a slight pressure on your foot you can travel at 60 miles an hour. It doesn't even seem fast to us, but it is. We are traveling at 60 miles an hour! That's nuts! Cavemen would be jealous, the only time they moved 60 mph was when a T-Rex was behind them.

I guess I have some form of depression, which based on my mood and reactions, that is an obvious statement. I just don't know why. I've never been understood by a single person all my life. That's why all these friendships that disappeared, did so with ease. Nothing much has changed, I've always been alone in a crowd. But I've never cared. I just ( Read more... )

My minds a mess. I don't know anything anymore. Life is so great and at the same time it is so horrible. Why? I don't even know. I am just so fed up with everything. I am so alone. I have nothing to fall back on other than the things which will ultimately end everything. I don't want to end it, but yes, I do. I just want something good, something ( Read more... )

You call me begging for friendship, asking me to consider it. You claim it's so easy for me to drop you and so hard for you to drop me. BULLSHIT! You dropped me the day I gave you the choice. Do I care that I am pushing you away, yes, yes I do. It hurts alot. But you know what, when you walked away from me, I don't think you hurt at all. You were ( Read more... )

Today was a rather non-productive day. Sat around the house, in my boxers no less, watching The US Open on Comedy Central. After a few more shows I was interrupted by somebody saying that they were at my house and wanted to talk. I had to rush to clean up and get dressed. But Why? I didn't even talk to her, let alone look at her. Then I had to go ( Read more... )