Well Dad this the end of our relationship and I am honestly so messed up about it. I want you to be at my wedding and give me away but it isn't going to happen. I think not rolling down my window and driving away was probably one of the hardest things to do. But I know I had to do it because you're in a toxic relationship with someone that I can't ( Read more... )

I have a video on my desktop that is my suicide note. What normal person has that? I have everything that I could ever want but yet it isn't enough. I have an amazing boyfriend who is willing to support me and give me my forever, I am blessed to have gained a family that I know loves me and will help me with anything. I have the life that I have ( Read more... )

I really need to know if this is what I want. If I am ready for what you want of me or if I just want to be my age. Committing to you means that I need to grow up and have responsibility which I am fine with but on the other hand am I ready to be an old married couple? I know that my greatest dream is to be married and have a family and be a cute ( Read more... )

On my own spit. I am choking on my own tounge and gasping for air. I can see myself drinking bleach and buring my insides. The noose around my neck is getting tighter and tighter. The itch in my wirst is getting worse and worse and I keep rubbing it on anything I can find. The more that I think I want to ask for help the more I know that I don't.

has been in the hospital since thursday and I just found out last night. I hate that kat waited this long to tell me I mean regardless of what is going on with my father and I, I should at least be notified or something. He has been jumping from ICU and the place where they watch your heart. I was going to go visit but kat said I should hold off. ( Read more... )

I remember one of the main reasons that I moved to texas today ( Read more... )

I got the itch in my wrist to taste blade once again ( Read more... )

What can I say? Back in the hospital with a blood alcohol level of .5. Last time I check I should have been dead ( Read more... )

of the woman I used to call mother ( Read more... )

Well so much has changed since my last post. I am back with manny and my parent's kicked me out because I am the unhealthy one. I think I am still lost in my own mind about what has really happened in such short of time. I lost my job because of lack of communication and lack off effort on my part. I knew when they called me in for an interview ( Read more... )