OK, about a month or 2 into living here with Ashley and William I realized that I don't like the roommate thing. After 3 my mantra was 'just deal with it'. Well it's been almost exactly 7 months, and my mantra now is "I will not kill anyone- including myself" (Though that second part is usually an afterthought, and not as high a priority). It only ( Read more... )

Tonight was our somewhat-weekly ropes get-together with Scott, E, and random people. This week there was just one other person named Mandy that has had some fun playing with E before as well so everyone knew each other, but for me the trust/familiarity levels vary. Scott pretty much leads the group, because he is the most experienced, he also has ( Read more... )

E wanted me to join The Front with him. He was even willing to pay for a month membership for me. (I would have to find a way to pay for shoes, some time soon but Still). He was going to get a good deal this month. I tried and tried to make myself get into it. I really WANT to get into it! But the times I've been there I've felt.. paranoid, anxious ( Read more... )

Out of the 10 posts I've started in the past months I WILL actually post this one ( Read more... )

( (be aware, this is a personally explicit post- no real vulgarity, just facts about me that you might not have ever wanted to know). )

I know you all haven't seen me around much recently, but is ANYONE willing to give me a ride to or from the club tonight? (Area or Trapp Door, Wherever the fun is) I want to drink and not worry about being unsafe- I don't live superfar away anymore, I live near liberty park, and can meet closer for the pickup if that is easier, and I'll treat for ( Read more... )

( This has NOT been the best week. )

( Long rantie room thing )

Sometimes I just ache for times in my past so much I cry. Sober, drunk, hormonal or not.. the pain of that happiness is.. impressive.

Odd things about recent events ( Read more... )