im lending a friend 250 dollars next week and im really nervous about it.
but he really needs it and i feel really good about being able to help him out. i mean its pretty life-changing and he'll always remember that jason saved his ass. and im actually pretty confident that he'll pay me back. im pretty satisfied with myself.

i find myself caring about the most ridiculously random people. its pretty mind-blowing. except jon. man jon is a friend and a half. but i think i have to finally give up on something i've wanted for over a year and a half and its really depressing to no end. but ill truck on ( Read more... )

i got caught sneaking out.
and to convince my grandma not to tell my mom, she took my phone for two weeks
my plan is to convince my aunt to let me borrow hers
but i might be phoneless for two weeks
eeeeek

i realized sunday morning, as i came down off acid and mda that i forgot who i was. literally. i always thought i wasnt losing myself to drugs because i still had good grades, but i realize that its sortof thrashing my personality and turning me into someone who's very unsure of himself and very very insecure. i do things to get away from people ( Read more... )

today was interesting.

actually not really,
but i did find out
....
i mght have...
....
[this is not one of jasons lies]

glaucoma.\

i gotta go back in next week for more extensive testing and stuff
but no lie, im borderline glaucoma..

but that does ensure one thing

MEDICAL MARIJUANA IN 1 YEAR AND 2.5 MONTHS :]

what a crazy weekend ( Read more... )

i really do think too much. i have things pretty wrapped up, but i get myself in these moods, all as a result of my never ending paranoia. i have no clue how to make it stop.. well no i have one prety thorough solution, but its not really in the cards at the moment. so im forced to live my life as a fantasy. [ i hate when people use words like ( Read more... )

i dont know
but what i do know is
im sitting in my computer room
drinking beer
alone

i had a pretty damn interesting weekend

im worried i cant get high anymore, hopefully ivanas right and its just shitty weed.

i almost did a lot of life changing things. but i didnt really do any of them. im gonna find out aboutmy job monday i hope :]

hot diggity damn my life is in order

edit:

no worries sweet world

im stoned

i walked in my room to put my bong away and theres this weird animation of this girrafe in some quick sand and it went through all the stages he went through before he died, like anger, depression, and acceptance.. then he didnt die.. it was depressing as hell.

not to mention a trip