this close to revenge... this is very close

I haven't really used this in a while. I just felt the need to put things somewhere i couldn't any where else. Its the end of another year at conn. Im surprised i havent destroyed my self through any of the college vices available to me. This year has probably been one of the happiest years I've had in a while. Albeit there are some terribleness i ( Read more... )

sure i had lots of plans for new years, for once in my life. All i wanted was to spend it with jake like he at one time said but no. As per usual it was some sort of fabrication.

This break has put me so far away from everything. I had such a family thing happening in knowlton, i was yanked away by this break. I was yanked away from jacob, who seemed to maybe get this whole i want to see my girl friend more than i actually do thing. And maybe i might have felt better with a week. It was by no means a clean break. And next ( Read more... )

im not writing an essay so i can write this

i just like to report

that at this point in my life

i thought i would feel

much much older than

how i feel now

that is all

I actually have a few seconds to spare, so i might as well catch up instead of reading the book I'm suppose to finish today. yeah so i went to college. Again. Same one, connecticut college. I'm a lot happier than i was last year. Unbeknownst to be i was a miserable fuck last year. But I was to fucking happy to ever notice, if that makes sense. ( Read more... )

It made me really upset and i dont think i have it in me to tell him how much it bothered me. I know she's your best friend. And i know you played beer pong with her against marcus and abbby. but i dont know if what you told me todayyy is something i can deal withhh..... it hurt a lot not in a spiteful or sharp way but in a way that burnsssss and ( Read more... )

I dont wanna write in here anymore. Everything seems so far away. I remember i think i felt this way last year too. College, work, friends, jake, money. There has been a pretty constant stream of some entertainment so it's not as bad as it could be. Jacobbbb is the furthest. For away in distance and in lifestyle suppose. He wants me to visit on ( Read more... )

 ITSSSS BEEN WEIRDDD. not to say its bad or anything cause its not. Its just weird. My days i usually sit around and clean the house and complete the tasks my mom tells me toooo. At night someone is usually around to hang out with. Ive been trying to knit more. Im prettty broke though so i cant really afford yarn. Nor do i have a way to drive to a ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do. I usually talk to jake at least every other day but i havent heard from him since thursday. What scares me the most is that there is no one for me to contact him and it worries me so much. his phone is off or dead it keeps going straight to voicemail for the past 3 days and he hasnt been online for ages. I just get really ( Read more... )