i'm so high. my parents hate me because i'm high. they don't understand anything...i have no privacy... i hate life so much when it seems i have no control over it--it's so fucking frustrating. i love weezer. i love garth, but sometimes i worry. maybe that's because i'm paranoid because i'm a pothead addict loser. and i like to get high. they've ( Read more... )

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i am high almost every day now. i can't see my life outside of this elated feeling i'm experiencing from what it's doing to my brain. i haven't written in forever, for all you who care/notice, because my own computer has been...er..struggling with great difficulty. this is gatrh's computer. i don't Want to see beyond weed. life would be missing ( Read more... )

why God saw fit to bless me so
I cannot know.

those days when i feel so overwhelmed
and the earth just seems to engulf me
those times when i need my hand held
and i can't see 3 feet in front of me

when i'm lost
when i'm scared
you always find me
you're always there

you're just waiting to be
what i need you to be
just waiting to be
needed by me

I love you Garth.

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hey everyone, if you have not seen "I Dreamed Of Africa" then go do so. i watched it tonight on bravo. i know it's an older movie so you might have seen it. but if not, DEFINITELY worth renting. and i don't think it's a chick flick, either. just a great movie. watch!
~In love with Paolo, aka Garthito.

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boys, boys, boys. it's all a girl thinks about. i have no idea what i want to do. i feel so tied down. i guess i'm supposed to. sometimes it's a good feeling, other times, it's not. i've had friends tell me "just wait until you get to the one year mark. it's all downhill from there." i enjoy the security and comfort and love of a relationship. but ( Read more... )