Because I find it very easy to ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning smelling like a blunt roach. This weekend was so fucking fake. It could have been a dream. Saturday I went to this lame party and got left there which is what I sort of wanted, im a bird I gotta fly solo you know. So this party, fucking cody is there. Since when are we like arch enemies? I dont even know what up with ( Read more... )

FINALLY first poem in a long fucking time. Not even a poem, a statement ( Read more... )

So today was good, spanish was fun i kicked it with the crew. My dad just left to go get fucked up with my peice of shit slut step mother. So as i was saying geometry i got a good grade on my test i think and then honors bio was pretty fine. So that was it for school, today i just hung out with megan and kyle and randy and jimmy and people came ( Read more... )

So life is nothing but one big blur. Everyday is the same every face is familiar and everyone knows I'm losing it. My perception of reality has become a fucking joke and the fever of addiction is arising, In the air you smell death and on my breath poison and there is nothing for you to do about it. You want to see me well you want to see me ( Read more... )

So as i was walking home, i was thinking about how much it hurt to actually know that i lost the best thing i ever had. I am just not the same without him now and i know hes still there and he will always be there but hes the only person i have ever wanted to grow old with. And then theres "him" hes everything i have ever dreamed of. Like i mean ( Read more... )

I colored my hair black.

I hadn't been that cold since it happened. I was sitting there with randy literally shaking and when you mix that with drugs you get memories. It was like i could hear everything he said over again. I feel used.. and violated at times about what happened but right now all i feel is anger. Anger and hate is what i am made up of and if you take ( Read more... )

He deserves it.

Last night i lost my grasp on reality. I went pretty insane. Today i registered at redondo. It cant be that bad but i am pretty sad i didnt get to go to costa. We hung out at Randy's motel room all day pretty much and wasted away. The shittiest feeling is wanting to want something so perfect and trying to forget about wanting something you ( Read more... )