Dad had a stroke yesterday afternoon. Things are definitely not the best. Keep him in your thoughts. I'll keep everyone posted.

Wow. It has honestly been forever since I last got on my journal. Feel free everyone to read up and catch up on my immature past self. I am completely honest in this journal, and I've got nothing to hide. I hope you all enjoy. Also, I will be updating everyone on my father's status on here, so read up!

I went on a bit of a blind date tonight.  I totally blew it.  She was just SO PRETTY.  I was completely intimidated.  I didn't know what to say ( Read more... )

I'm having a tough time not having that special someone in my life.  I know it's only been a month or so, but I've truly been struggling.  I thought things were going so well, but now I'm just....blah.  I'm a lonely person these days.  I absolutely can't stand it.  I'm in a funk, and I can't get out.  I just want to get my life started.  But ( Read more... )

...that I've been better.  Steph and I are no longer seeing eachother.  I'm truly disgusted with the way things turned out.  Trust me, I don't want to get into it.  But I will say that it made me realize what I want in life.  I want to start a family.  I want to settle down ( Read more... )

Things are the best they've been in a while.  Really.  But yet I sit here, trying to figure myself out.  I can't seem to get certain things off my mind.  Especially things that are out of my control, or things that I choose not to control.  I've made certain decisions, and have found to regret them to an extent.  It's sad knowing that I've made ( Read more... )

this past weekend helped me realize what i really want out of my life.  new things, new thoughts.    i've been so focused on my life, i forgot how to help others.  i was so involved with my feelings.... what a joke.  my feelings will heal.  there are far worse things that would happen to me.  i see all of my friends and family suffering, wanting, ( Read more... )

it was torture enough seeing her saturday night, and now this...  she's already crushing on someone else.   that's a knife to the heart.  i can't even remember the last time i felt this way.  i'm honestly hurt.

so much for love.  apparently broken hearts gravitate my way.

i'm always pissed off, angry, or dissapointed.  i feel like i'm losing control.  i just can't seem to stop.  hopefully it's just a phase.  i've heard the perfect song to describe how i'm feeling.  here it is.

Well It's Happening
Never Planned On This
You've Got Something I Need
Kind Of Dangerous
And I'm Losing Control
I'm Not Used To This
What You Want ( Read more... )

i can't even describe how i'm feeling right now.  i've been thinking way too much again.  i can't help but think what happened to my life.  things are different.  the past five months, i've been sure of what i wanted.  it drifted away, yet again.  i'm not looking forward to another four or five years with nothing accomplished.  i've thrown away a ( Read more... )