I want to be someone I'll never be ( Read more... )

i fucked up. i fucked up really bad too. i got caught sneaking out. its a long story that i really dont feel like telling. i hav lots of stories i dont feel like telling. this is what its all come down to. something i used to depend on, i dont even hav enough motivation to tell a fucking story. its not like i hav to do anything that hard. whatever ( Read more... )

whoa. i havent written in a long while but im sure nobody missed me. but, u know what i just remembered? that person who was leaving me messages on my journal..i still want to know who that was and i hope that the person will tell me me one day. anyway. i miss mike so much!!! hes in the carribean islands right now! n hes gunna have thanksgiving on ( Read more... )

woooo! so much going on. im so happy tho. between mike n play practice n babysitting, n wutever else, but mostly mike, i hav no time for nething. i dont even feel like writing about everything, im so wiped out. i havent done my homework in forever. but im still so happy. i think this is the first time ive been truly happy in my whole life. ahhh! im ( Read more... )

whoa. me n mike need to chill a lil. well we actually hav unintentionally so its all good. he got in trouble yesterday n i felt so bad. he got his car taken away n he has to go to a psychiatrist once a week now. it sux n i feel so bad. im not gunna get into the reasons b/c i dont reely hav the rite to tell ne1. but neway..the new excitement of ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in a reeli reeli long time! but soooo much has happened. ive barely been home or on the computer between hanging out with mike n rehearsal n hanging out with mike...and...well thats all ive been doing! i spend 24/7 w/him. its amazing. we click so well. n guess wut?? i hooked up with him!! we r so open with eachother. there is ( Read more... )

as the year progresses ill probably b updating less and less. ive been so busy. i dont even remember whats been keeping me so busy. anyway, im so in love with mike! hes so sweet, and classy, and romantic. ugghhh! fuck his girlfriend. evrything he does makes me want him more n it makes me so mad to know i cant hav him. y do i always go for guys i ( Read more... )

last time i posted i was in quite a bad mood. this time im actually in an ok mood. so i didnt really get to update u on my weekend. friday nite i went out with todd n we spent an hour in the car arguing..dont ask.. but neway, after that i went to mikes house till 1am n almost got caught. it was reeli funny but im not in a story telling mood so u ( Read more... )

sometimes i sit and wonder what is so wrong in my life that i want to end it so much? dont get me wrong, i can think of plenty of reasons, but then i get to thinking that there are people in the world who are so much worse off than me. n that some of my biggest worries are actually quite superficial and i just gave them an unnecessary meaning. that ( Read more... )

whoa. did ne1 read that post i got on my last entry?? the person means well, i guess, but its kinda scary. n now its annoying me alot b/c i dk hu it is. ahhhh! CONFESS!! person reading my entries..please give me something to ease my mind cuz its bugging out rite now ( Read more... )