ive been so damn busy, no time to update. grr. neway, i went out agen sunday nite n smoked some with pat n mike. i really shouldnt make this thing a habit. that wud b bad. but ill probably end up going out tonite as well. wutever. yesterday i went straight from school to richs house n he, like the special little boy he is, forgot his key so we had ( Read more... )

last nite was fuking crazy. my parents finally went to sleep so i got up n got dressed agen n snuck out. i stole a full bottle of absolute from my parents too, they hav so much vodka its unbelievable. lets just hope they dont notice. neway, i went out to mikes house but lauren n macho cudnt come so it was just me pat n mike. me n mike had screw ( Read more... )

sorry i havent updated in a while. well this past week has been a crazy sik week. well school was whatever. who cares about skool. neway. i started hanging out with this kid pat darcy in my dev. hes reeli cool. so one nite he asked me at like 12 am if i wanted to go for a walk. that meant i had to sneak out. n my dad was sleeping on the couch rite ( Read more... )

i am randomly in a good mood. this hasnt happened in a very long time. mayb cuz i got out most of my sadness last nite. i cudnt fall asleep n then i just started crying. i didnt even know why. i think it was just everything built up together. so i called rich rather than go talk to my friend the tylenol bottle. well actually rich sez i shudnt b ( Read more... )

i put a gun to my head ( Read more... )

im officially over him!! i dont hav ne desire to b with him. lets hope i dont change my mind wen i c him agen...i dont think i will tho. just wanted to inform ne1 hu was reading of theat. gotta get bec to my roshashana dinner. y must jews hav such big families?? later.
*Lea*

i think im finally getting over him. not that it took that long but still. im proud of myself. im actually showing some willpower. i hope hes read evrything in here too. its easier having him find out on his own rather than me tell him. at least he knows how i feel. not that it wud hav ne effect on him. cuz hes an asshole of course. but knowing him ( Read more... )

all my bags r packed. im ready to go. im standing here outside ur door. i hate to wake u up to say goodbye. but the dawn is breaking. its early morn. the taxi is waiting. hes blowin his horn. already im so lonesome i could cry ( Read more... )

its 3:20 am and i am still up!! im a fuking insomniac. w/e. i decided to take this time to tell evry1 wut i hate abou the world ( Read more... )

im bored, its 12:36 am. n i dont feel like going to bed. fuk. im talking to 3 people n all about nothing. i hate talking to people about nothing. the conversation consists of: hey. wuts up. nm. u? same. cool. n after a while u ask agen n the answer slighty goes into more detail: so... wuts up. listening to musing, bored. u? same. its so depressing ( Read more... )