Such a beautiful song. Listen to it ( Read more... )

 Nothing we remember is what actually happened. Our memories are completely colored by our emotions and past experiences. It's strange to think that no two people can ever share an exact feeling. It may sound the same in words, or look similar, but it isn't. Your perception of reality is not my perception of reality; we've had different things ( Read more... )

I know I shouldn't, but I can't stop thinking about the terrible, selfish things that we all do to each other. And we do, regardless of how good our intentions are. I don't think it's wrong to put yourself first, but I do think it's wrong to make choices that you know will hurt someone. And I'm very frustrated with the situations that I have dealt ( Read more... )

Last night I walked home at 3 a.m., Farmington felt so quiet, it was beautiful and I realized I didn't want to share that moment with anyone. The feeling that I am alone and that is really okay was the best thing I've felt in a long time. 

 I had an epic dream about fighting zombies with the cast of Lost, which I seriously think should be a movie. I always thought I wouldn't survive in a zombie apocalypse, but after my dream I'm not so sure.. I probably could. I'm getting rule number 1 under control, and the rest are pretty much common sense. Damn you Zombieland and subconscious for ( Read more... )

 I may or may not be making a huge mistake, but I know I'll be okay, no matter what happens. I'm a little mad at myself for caving in, but it wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be, and I think things might be alright eventually. Friendship is probably out of the question, but at least in social settings we can be... not awkward as fuck, I ( Read more... )

 Time is moving too fast and too slow all at once. I wish I could say all the things I really feel instead of censoring myself to avoid hurting people's feelings. All I want to do is talk to Dave, to hear his voice, and I hate myself for that. For being so weak, for knowing everything that I know and still not be able to say with certainty that I ( Read more... )

 Things are getting to be too heavy. I don't know how much longer I can handle this, but I'm trying goddamnit. There's too much tension between people, everyone, all the time. I hate when I can't control the things I say, the things I talk about.. they are upsetting but only to me, and sometimes I forget that. No one else is having this exact ( Read more... )

 I'm on my knees ( Read more... )

It's incredible how amazing I feel right now. For the first time in the past three and a half years, I am completely socially comfortable. I have insanely wonderful friends, a great apartment, an independence that I've never felt before. I can't believe I was holding myself back from all of this for so long, but it feels good to let everything ( Read more... )