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no changes
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hatin' life
i'm working 2 jobs and still cant afford to get out on my own. i need to so bad. i need to get away from HIM. nothing good will come from this relationship. he loves her and always has. he just keeps lying and lying. i really thought he was sincere when he told me he was done with that shit. yes shes far away, but there was a time when she wasnt. ( Read more... ) -
big shot screaming.....
i love babysitting. fun fun fun. i hate being away from home, though. i must say i miss that boy like no tomorrow when he's not around. so so sad ( Read more... ) -
too much damn money
thats what sucks. i have a surgery coming up that costs $600. : ( it sucks being an adult. i need to win the lottery. i wish i was a guy so i could sell my sperm. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>>>>>>>> that looks NOTHING like a sperm. rawr. -
i can honestly say
that life is really sucking right now. i miss a lot of people that i used to know. everything is going down hill. kind of like ( Read more... ) -
long time no write
3 months? Wow, seems like way longer than that. Nothing too crazy has been going on. I still love chris. he still doesnt trust me. Atleast i try. sigh...... I want him to come home but i dont want him to just play his games and not talk to me. I read all the old emails he sent me when i was in texas. bad idea. holy crap, i hope he still feels that ( Read more... ) -
long time no talk
man, it's been so long since i've written in this thing. I think i've been distracted with friends, scrubs, and myspace. That ones a guilty pleasure. Anyway, work has been going great. I'm finally gonna start school. I'm excited about that.I dont know if being an optician is something i wanna do for the rest of my life, but it sure as hell is a ( Read more... ) -
grr........
i guess guys just dont think. I couldnt fuckin wait to come home from delmar to see chris cuz i missed him but i guess that wasnt returned. Whatever. Sometimes it's so hard to just try. I hope he grows the fuck up soon. Just because you go to school and have a hard job doesnt mean you're an adult. I just wish he fucking trusted me. I trust him even ( Read more... ) -
it's 3 am
it's 3 am and noone is on for me to talk to and chris is playing halo and i'm fucking drunk. Go me. Typing is so much easier thann usual. Is that backwards?? Oh well, i gotta get up at fuckin 7 and that sucks but yeah. I love myspace. It's fun as shit. Wow, i really need a life. I wish i was in college. Just so i could feel like i'm doing what the ( Read more... )