old news. liars. fakes. what i have to put up with daily.. i just wish people were true and didnt act one way to ur face and then turn around and be the opposite. will that ever happen no? atleast im past denial, and trying to be blue alcohol. and some people should just dissapear forever, like they never existed.. yea. FUCK YOU! >sigh< okay. i ( Read more... )

ahh ok. well boys r gay. school is worse, except drinkin nd smokin dth(down the hill) haha some lingo 4 u! i like sex but i dont like the things that come after, how will that work? well this kid i used 2 have a crush on tried to get with me a few days ago, and i pretty much said no. but we've been talking so who knows. im still hung up on the old ( Read more... )

"what a dick?" --perfect quote

i want to just fade away..

did you ever think your whole world could change in one moment? well it can. life changing events are more common then you think.

its even more insane then the craziest thing you could imagine, but its a secret. fucking.. just woah.

im changed, and it took only one second.

im actually excited for valentines day! los just asked me, when stated, that i was his valentine since hes coming over. its so cute. he was like asking me if i wanted chocolate and flowers and stuff. awww. and hes going to bring movies and popcorn. im like gushing. we're going to watch scary movies so he can hold me! how cute? yay! valentines might ( Read more... )

friday was dumb. saturday i was a hoe. last regrettable weekend? i think so. smart decisions will be made from now on. i like kinda like los. hes prob going to be valentine #2, cause willie is still #1. i love willie. he is going to be my baby forever! hes such a cutie pie!!! awww!!! anyway im talking to both of them, i should get back to my convos ( Read more... )

i have a date tomorrow. well he asked me on a date. i was kinda like uhh we'll just chill. but why am i nervous? hes nice, really tall, caring, a cutie, and hes bubblin haha. but im scared because he is so nice.

and the nice guys are always the ones who hurt me the most..

life kinda sucks. once you think something good is happening, it ALL turns to shit. im never waiting again. im done. you wont ever come. no one will. i want to get fucked up. i was fucked up friday, not yesterday :( . and i kind of did stuff with two guys. i feel used, i always do stuff like this and then wish i didnt. its not quite a regret, but ( Read more... )

how can you be so happy one moment and then be so lonely and sad the next? why the fuck am i crying? i hate people!

i need a valentine. want to hold me and make it all better? even a guy-friend valentine would be nice. but i dont want to ask, im going to [not really ask] willie! hes my superman. he always rescues me and makes me feel special. i love him! but he might have a girlfriend. well too bad, sucks for her cause im his valentine lol ( Read more... )