im sick. i have fever and a really bad headache, plus i coughed up a little blood this morning. but i cant not go to school. because once the weekend comes i need to drink. i want, need a fucking drink. my head probably hurts because my moms a bitch. fucking cunt. anyway im going to sleep. i need chicken soup and a stogge ( Read more... )

today-- its so hot in my room. i need like a man to turn the heat off. you have to like turn this thingy and i cant do it. fuck. i made up with "lily" and we went to dinner. i met her on 236th and she was with the whole fucking basketball team. yuck. i hate when guys hit on you in like packs, its scary. uhh i watched law and order and it was pretty ( Read more... )

haha. i was drunk last night. i made lots of drunken phone calls ( Read more... )

im drunk. im grounded. y & l just left. my parents will be home any minute. good times. i made like 15 drunken phone calls. fun nitee!!

p.s. im eating peanut m&m's, but i cant taste them. bye i have to pee.

im grounded. and bored. k & e came over today. we watched a scary movie. i dont want to sleep alone tonight. y & l are coming over now. my parents are at a movie. we're going to get FUCKED UP! i just tried having a stoggee outside and well, it didnt really work. it

some shit thats happened: but it doesnt rele scare me ( Read more... )

i know everyone goes through things. i know everyone hits a rough time. but i cant deal with all this stuff anymore. i wish i could just fade away and i wish i never existed. im not going to kill myself, im too fucking pussy for that. i just want to leave. and go where? i have no where to go. my dad said i could transfer schools, but not until next ( Read more... )

i havent talked to the regrettable guy, maybe i should name him. hmm.. how about john, thats a good common name. i havent talked to john since he called on thursday, well friday.. like 5am. and i just realized this. i havent even tried calling. and i dont think i will. i think i got what i needed from him and now its over ( Read more... )

1. What is your middle name ( Read more... )

well i think im growing. im getting over him. it feels good and i hope it lasts. i pray it does. ive had some help getting over him and i want to thank my friends for listening to my bullshit. [even though they wont be reading this ( Read more... )