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Birthday
Every year for the last 20 years (since I was 14) I have stayed up on January 19th until 1:31 am on January 20th, my true birthday, the actual time I was born. This year I am exhausted and I don't think I'm gonna make it. Crazy to think that it's been 20 years tho. Some of those memories were so much fun. Some of them were really sad and lonely. ( Read more... ) -
Spinning...can't sleep
I need a good book. Or a vacation. I need a serious distraction at the very least. I want a new start. A new focus. There has got to be more to life than just wishing it away. I know I was meant for something, I just don't know what. I know what I want my life to consist of, what I want my life to be...but it's no where close to that, and I don't ( Read more... ) -
Still loving him...
I have loved you for so long now, I can't remember not loving you. When I am with you, I am happier than I ever remember feeling. You make me feel cared for and secure, like we really could be just what each other needs. Being with you is comfortable. Being away from you is agony ( Read more... ) -
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Holy emo day! I've been keeping everything all bottled up, trying to be strong, trying to focus on what I have to be grateful for and pushing down feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. I feel guilty for being sad when I have so much to be grateful for. Some days it just gets to me and today is one of those days. Spinning...thinking WAAAYY too much... ( Read more... ) -
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Holy emo day! I've been keeping everything all bottled up, trying to be strong, trying to focus on what I have to be grateful for and pushing down feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. I feel guilty for being sad when I have so much to be grateful for. Some days it just gets to me and today is one of those days.
Spinning...thinking WAAAYY too much ( Read more... ) -
Officially 30 :)
I really don't want this journal or this goal I set for myself to get away from me by letting too many days go by. I'm not sure what I want to say tho...When I try to think of what I can say I feel like a broken record, most things I am thinking about, I have already talked about but I will try anyway ( Read more... ) -
Lessons learned...
Just a few things I've learned in my 30 years of living ( Read more... ) -
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I have some really amazing people in my life. I am loved beyond measure and I can't tell you how much that means to me. Having one person that you know you can count on is a blessing and I have more then I can count on one hand.
I have a friend that I met through this journal that I've known since about 2005, he lives in Ohio and we've never met ( Read more... )
