Wow, my life's been just grand since I lost all my friends. It's fun to have no one to talk to or laugh with. I love to pretend my dreams are real and I have more fun sleeping than I do in my waking life. It makes me feel so great to know that I'm incapable of carrying out a phone conversation with my best friend who I can't even hang out with. I ( Read more... )

When you break up with someone and say, "let's just be friends," usually what you really mean is, "let's never see each other again." Well at least that's what I meant when I said it. Apparently I need to be more straight-forward when I break up with people. It's not a game. It's life. You date someone for a while, get to know that person, maybe ( Read more... )

I've been feeling very antisocial lately. The only friend I can still talk to on the phone is Danielle. And even when we talk, I have this nervous energy in my gut that makes me want to end the conversation ASAP. It's like I'm terrified of having friends. I push so many people away all the time. I am scared to call Ava and hang out for coffee or a ( Read more... )

Ok, since I got quite a few replies (11 is a lot for me lol) on my last post regarding dieting, I decided to continue this topic as more of an open discussion. First of all, I'd like to say that I've been doing a lot of research on this topic. It's been a huge part of my teenage life. I've struggled with anorexia and compulsive overeating since I ( Read more... )

Over my break from school this fall, staying in the hospital for two weeks and taking metabolism-slowing medications has taken a toll on my body. I put on some weight and just didn't feel right with my body. Ok, so I've been dieting for a little over two weeks now (since December 4th). I count calories, exercise, work to stay busy all day, and don' ( Read more... )

One umbrella over two.
She held my hand while I was blue.
Her small hands and delicate fingers
Left a warm, gentle scent that lingers.
She told me, "Sister, you'll be alright
Because you'll have the moon tonight."

Desolate town,
Dusty home.
She stands alone.
Ravaged in undead skin.
Is this a game? Is this a chore?
She holds the vacuum.
The past is her present ( Read more... )

What American accent do you have?
Your Result: The Midland

"You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big ( Read more... )

So much has happened to me these past two months that I don't know where to begin. Let's see... There were students in the hallway, but they seemed like props to my dream. I couldn't find an exit and time felt like it was slipping away fast. I had to make an entrance to reality, but couldn't find the proper switch. So I grabbed the first one I ( Read more... )

hot potato
I am baked lays unbaked
I don't want to play hot potato anymore

Whoa whoa whoa! What do we have here?! It's an empty, neglected lj page. I wanted to brighten things up by spreading my awesome news. I'm feeling looooove!!!!!! O my God! It's soo nice. Jason, if you're reading this, I'm talking to you when I say "you complete me"! haha... well What can I say... for all you other lj-ers out there wondering who this ( Read more... )