I dreamed of you again it was weird and I felt good the whole entire time

I know no one even has a livejournal anymore. Everyone I know deleted there's so I know no one will ever even read this, but I still miss you so much Sara, I dream about you so much, I think about you so much. You were special to me and I am glad I had time to spend with you in my life and I will cherish it.

I try so hard to live a life, but it's so tough having to deal with these panic attacks, I've never been this bad in my life with them. I can't leave my neighborhood now. I've been deathly afraid of having to deal with all these problems because of the severity of them. I feel useless so much, like I have no reason to live but to exist and that's ( Read more... )

Today was the big 18, It didn't feel no different then any other day really. I woke up to Tyler and Sergio in my room, it was a little strange but I am grateful for them. Today so far has been a lame day really. I didn't even do anything so far. I felt like shit for most part of the day due to the anxiety, I didn't even go out to dinner because I ( Read more... )

why am I stuck in the past, how could I still miss Sara so much

I know no one even uses livejournal anymore, let alone I don't even have any friends on here now. I'm still in awe that I still have this thing, its been since 8th grade, so almost 5 years I've had the same journal. I was thinking about all the past difficulties I've struggled with, and none of them are even bothersome. I reread all those problems ( Read more... )

After almost a year of parting, and seeing you today for the first time in that long. I have to say somehow I still have feelings for you. It was so good to see you, it was the first time I had butterflies in my stomach. It was strange but I felt alive

It's been almost 9 months now and I can't get you out of my head. Why are you still in here get out now.

I met someone today who resembled you so much. I couldn't stop thinking about the similarities and I got lost in thought about it. It really upset me and showed me how much I miss you actually.

And he said: "Son, this world is rough ( Read more... )