hmm.
so i've already posted about me having to lose 6 inches off my waist to fit into my grad dress
but i can't stop thinking about it.
i've had like 600 calories today.
i'm pathetic

so, i ordered this red and gold dress from ebay and i finally got it today. mesurements, 36, 27, 36 ( Read more... )

hmm lost a lot of weight.
lot more to go.
proud of myself ?
not really.
never satisfied.

going to trevor's graduation in a few days.
mom made a dress.
i hope i look good.

oh my gosh. lost a bit of weight. not enough to talk about really. so im fucking serious. i REALLY REALLY have to get back on track. omf im so pissed at myself for having no willpower. goddamn it.

ugh. everything was so perfect until probably like 5 seconds ago. whenever im doing fine and im off drugs or happy and everythings going fine, somebody has to fuck me over. well ive been depressed lately. basically not eating. i guess thats the upside to all this bullshit. ugh i hope things will be okay. x

so, 100 calories so far : ) and its like supper time haha   so theres crib tonight. crib is like a bunch of teenagers go to some place for free food and video games and shit. but mostly i just go there with my friends to get drunk and smoke pot haah drinking tonight : ) which has a lot of calories i know buttt probably ill just barf. i like getting ( Read more... )

 goddamn. so yesturday i ended up eating 600 calories. and today i did the same. and i never thought it was going to be this hard to get back to the way things were before.. ugh. well im rotted. i guess i should try to cheer up before i have to work at buck or two in like.. an hour and a half. pfft. have fun with that.     ss     , x

hmm so i ate 600 calories yesturday by they way. didnt update. and today i probably ate the same. so i feel like i should die. i didn't think it would be this hard to get back to the way things were

 hai : ) sooo today.. lets see. mmm so far ive had like 300 calories. which is what i used to eat in a whole day but i guess its a start. my step dad is making supper for me. gah hes trying to be nice i guess haha mmm well i redyed my hair purple and black.. thats about all that happened today. but i seriously need to stop eating so much. its ( Read more... )

hai, so this is my first entry in my new account.. so i'm ALLLL the way up to 150 lbs. goddamn it.