sometimes i just want to give up

i HATE this

so i went to a new psychiatrist today and she was really awesome.  but she determined that i had situational depression.  well i could have told her that.

things aren't enjoyable anymore.  my mind is constantly racing.  i feel like all these feelings and thoughts are consuming me and strangling me and ( Read more... )

so it's been a month.  A MONTH!

it still feels like last week.

life just isn't what it used to be... such a part of me is missing and there's absolutely NO way to get it back.  i just don't smile anymore.  i mean i do, but i'm not happy or anywhere close.  things aren't as special, the world isn't so bright and full of wonder like it was when i was ( Read more... )

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you?

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow?
I've never ( Read more... )

it's been such a long time since i've updated.  almost 2 months. geez...i'm a slacker.  i guess a lot has gone on... twirp, me failing my driving test, my wreck (which wasn't my fault by the way), actually getting my license, everything with daniel, getting closer to some friends and growing apart from others.  i think mostly just growing up.  i ( Read more... )

people are so rude sometimes it blows my mind.

Life is good.  That's all I have to say.  My birthday is tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited.  I've never been to school on my birthday 'cause it always snows but it looks like I'll be going tomorrow.  Oh well.  It'll be fun...I guess???  You would know that now that it's time for me to drive there are NO good cars for sale.  ugh.  That's ok ( Read more... )

im getting my hair cut up to my shoulders today.  oh my gosh im so scared that she'll give me the wrong hair cut and i'll look really stupid.

I'm so happy lately.  I'm absolutely LOVING life.  I have the best friends in the world, a bf who loves me more than I think I'll ever know, and I've been blessed with so much that I don't deserve.

Friday I went to the game.  We lost.  Oh well, I don't really care.  Kate, Jordan, Angelique, Sarah, Sara, Lindsay, and all the other old seniors were ( Read more... )

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well hello again guys.  i'm a slacker...i know.  first of all...hope yall are having a happy thanksgiving and enjoying your five days off!!!  second...i think that YOU should go to the tavern THIS saturday to see consonance (uh...hope i spelled that right) at 8:00 at the tavern because bo, chris, and noah are amazing and also diminished by you on ( Read more... )