wow im not totally sure if i feel like this for real but this song made me feel alot better just now ( Read more... )

I am, starting right now, saving up to take a trip to europe over the summer after I finish my undergrad or maybe my after my first year of grad studies. I ve decided I need to see the following cities/areas ( Read more... )

I am, starting right now, saving up to take a trip to europe over the summer after I finish my undergrad or maybe my after my first year of grad studies. I ve decided I need to see the following cities/areas ( Read more... )

Another day is going by ( Read more... )

Why does god hate me. I talk to her finally, and shes plastered. So much i wanted to say and i just get to sit there and know that everything Im saying is just going right past her. I cant do this I want to fucking go there I dont even care Ill go without books next semester I just need to see her now right now and I cant and even if i went whats ( Read more... )

thats it. I see the connection. No matter how much i try or love someone, when I need them is when they "need" to not be with me. My father abandoned me before college, and long before in fact. Now Im here trying to deal with shit and the only person I had left needs something that means I have to go it alone. I mean yeah she needs it, but right ( Read more... )

also, I feel like shanking someone right now, preferrably a guy who makes a move on her.

I'm pretty pathetic. I know shes a lost cause now. I cant hope to get her back now. I feel dead and lonely and helpless. nothing i could do could even make her think about changing her mind. Shes really gone this time. I dont trust anyone anymore, I cant open up anymore. I feel like im wandering alone through the wilderness. Ive lost the one true ( Read more... )

me=heartbroken and cold and dead inside.

Jesus I cant keep lying to myself like this I cant keep the fake mask up i tried all day and i finally cracked thinking about what shes doing. I really miss her I wish I was with her right now and this whole break thing is not easy on me. I dont know i think its that i need something to hold on to now because im so lost and confused and shes the ( Read more... )