Back to reality :(

Hard to put into words how im feeling at the moment.

Im missing my holiday already, I wish I was still there, it felt ... safe.

Im having a break for a few weeks. Im going on holiday with my family. I really need to rest, recharge, and get my head together. Ive been around reading posts, but feel Ive not much to contribute, sorry ( Read more... )

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change those that I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

St Francis of Assisi's prayer

Why do I keep insisting on revisiting and living in the past. I find out that people have actually moved on and arent in the same place we were 20 years ago, it bothers me that they have moved on, bc I so obviously havent. Its really fucking with my head ( Read more... )

Well, I have food with me, for breakfast and lunch. Bringing myself to actually eat it ... thats another story :/

I feel so angry inside .. screaming you know ( Read more... )

AT LAST! Not been able to get on this site all week. So annoyed with it.

Ive done okay this week. No b/p and plenty of walking. Its partly due to the fact that I have zero food in the house, and no money to restock, but thats fine.

Glad its almost weekend, and sleep.

Its the journey home from work that is making me so anxious, I was FINE until that point yesterday.  Arrived home, anxious, angry, in a total panic.  I need to find a way to deal with it ( Read more... )

Hmm, so I seem to be able to get on here before the 9am start time now.  Thats good, because I enjoy LJ before work starts ( Read more... )

LOST IN THE MADNESS