Dear shae,

you are my best friend. i never realized it until the feeling you gave me when you said that i was yours. i just always considered you my boyfriend. but your more than that. your my best friend. it will last forever. i need you to always be that for me. for real. not like the best friends ive had before. not like emily or jade, or jasmine ( Read more... )

dear elizabeth,

youve been my best friend since the seventh grade.
after everything, all the fights, all the laughs, all the sisterly moments, and all the trouble weve goten into, youve been my best friend.
always. 
i just dont understand how all my friends just abandon me. but i half expected it from a few.
not you.
never did i think you would ever ( Read more... )

monday.
april.... uhm... 21.

that was like 6 days ago.
and ive been with him everyday since then except not today.

things are so different i feel now.
sometimes i feel like i still love him like i always have.
sometimes i dont want to be away from him.
and sometimes i dont want him to stop holding or kissing me.
but sometimes isnt the word always.

he hurt ( Read more... )

for the past 16 days, ive been with you for 13 of them.
i love being with you everyday.
i love eating your food everyday.
i love watching TV with you everyday.
i love you holding me everyday.
i love us playing everyday.
i love us loving eachother everyday.
im going to love being with you everyday for always in time.

a day will come where ill never have to ( Read more... )

hi.
its been a while.

spring break and i get to sit at home.
mom is still a bitch.
i really dont like her sometimes.
ever since dad im not allowed to do anything.
i hate the way she is.
im 16 years old.
i should have a car. i should have freedom.
but i dont.
well shes going to get a wake up call because im done feeling like a little girl.
she doesnt want to ( Read more... )

dad came home.
mom became a bitch again.
spent the day with shae.

sitting here instead of at the fair.

dad.
im glad hes home.
im not glad he ever had to get hurt.
not only is he going to be suffering, we all will.
he wont be working for 3 months. mom will. making minimum wage probably.
we wont be getting any money.
things are going to get bad i can tell.
it ( Read more... )

please come home!
i miss you.
i miss home.
i miss caridee and my bed and my shower and my stupid early school mornings.
i dont want you to be hurt anymore.
i want you to be the provider, the dad, the invincable.
im sorry i havent came to see you.
but i cant do it.
i just cant.
im so sorry, do not think i am a bad daughter, or that i dont love you. 
of course ( Read more... )

I am sorry about this.

shae wasnt at school again today.
just like hes never at school.
its making me mad now.
and i cant even see him all weekend again.
this is going to suck.
i hope im allowed to go over there monday, but i think my mom is going to make me wait until tuesday.
then she said we probably arent going to the fair on friday??
wow im saving some money so i can go ( Read more... )

im annoyed with everyone.
liz doesnt like to sit there and have a conversation with me anymore.
she just likes to talk about me and pry into everything.
cassie doesnt hang out with me because she thinks im going to turn into this big druggie or something.
chrissy and darcy think they can get away with being a bitch to me when theyre together, but of ( Read more... )