this is weird i just learned the name of the orgy song i've been listening to for almost 2 weeks now along with dreams in digital ( Read more... )

my antibiotics make me feel funny........kinda light headed...at least i'll get ride of this infection. i don't like feeling light headed. i'm going to sleep. this sleeping alone thing sucks. i really don't care for it.

go back to work tomorrow, not really looking forward to it. the humidity here blows. my arm is looking better although i need to go soak my arm again. feeling like crap again, not too happy about that either. even with everyone here i still feel so alone and it's hurting me inside like never before. looking at me you couldn't tell but inside i'm ( Read more... )

I had severe trouble getting to sleep last night. i didn't close my eyes until about 5am and got up at noon. lately i've been crashing a lot earlier than that. had to go back to drinking pepto today, at one time my anxiety was so bad i had to drink it to keep from being sick. well i'm doing it again. even with everyone around me (all guys right now ( Read more... )

Someday i'll go back to work, someday.

my thumb is swollen but the infection is coming back down my arm. infullforce is staying with me so i'm not alone. have to give it to my friends they are making sure i'm ok, even though some of us hadn't seen each other in a year or so.

Still awake, insomnia appears to be worse now. infullforce is stay with me currently. Bear has always been there when i needed him. my thumb is all swollen and i can still feel the infection in my arm. it ran almost up to my shoulder. where i got the shot is tender. had to relance my thumb with a scalpel the doctor gave me. ( they gave me something REALLY ( Read more... )

it was an infection in my lymphoid system. got a shot in my hip and a loratab to kill the pain. they said it would've eventually jumped to my blood stream and then done damage, but i'll be ok.

my friends al showed up yesterday to make sure i was ok. most everyone crashed at my house last night.

i have to go to the local clinic now. it appears as though i have an infection running up my arm from my thumb through my bloodstream. gotta go get it looked at. maybe get meds for it. wish me luck

ok. I'm awake again. stayed awake for as long as i could last night, so i wouldn't dream. I'm ok, need to take a bath. been watching movies and trying to stay distracted as much as possible. my house is really cold lately, concrete walls trap it in. dread work with a passion but won't have to go back until tues. so i'll be ok. happy mother's day to ( Read more... )

I've been home for a little while. i haven't wondered into any of the rooms unless i've had too. ever since the burial i've only cried a few times. it bothers me to no end that i feel so numb most of the time. i know this will hit me later on if not when i lay down. I have never felt this much pain or loss before. i worry about myself a lot. Kittie ( Read more... )