I can feel it coming.. like that Daft Punk song. I was brought into Patrick's life to get him back on the "right" path. He's going to move to Seattle. He needs to move to Seattle. It's been amazing. It's been beautiful. Better than I could ever have imagined. I'm so grateful to the universe for this moment in time. It was amazing. It was fantastic ( Read more... )

I'm still processing everything that has transpired in the last few weeks and I kinda feel like all I want is space. Lucky me, that's exactly what I'm getting right now. 4 days of me time. To think about everything. To focus on what brings me joy. And to figure out exactly what's on my mind. I commit myself fully to all these things. Social events ( Read more... )

So I finally found a therapist and I'm starting a 13 week program next week. It's not cheap, but it is necessary. I need to figure out myself out. How to deal with myself and get tools to continue the work on my own for the future. I want to be good. I want to love myself completely... unconditionally.

I'm really happy most days. Patrick is the ( Read more... )

So now more than ever I have a plan for my romance novel. Santiago will be a narcissistic, beautiful, emotionally unavailable man that Karen will have a wonderful fling with. She'll know she won't want to be with him as he does nothing other than give her his body. He's not mean by any sense of the word, but he certainly puts himself first ALWAYS. ( Read more... )

OMG, never repaint your own cabinets. NEVER. After all the freaking sanding, have to prime, then sand, then paint, then sand, then paint again. It's literally going to take all freaking weekend. :(

I need help. The more help I can get, the better. If I'm doing by myself, it's going to take hours. Shit, even with help, it's going to take forever.

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So another friend of mine is being told he can't do stuff because his knee is messed up. This makes 2 people I know now that have been told they can't do the things they love anymore because their bodies are saying no. Makes me wonder how I would feel if someone told me I could never ski again. Ever.

I would be heart broken. There's almost nothing ( Read more... )

For the first time in forever. I canceled my trip to San Antonio. I know that doesn't seem like a big deal, but I will tell you it's the biggest thing I've done for myself in a VERY long time. I NEED to finish my kitchen. I've been living here for almost 2 months without a kitchen. I've been gone most weekends and haven't made much progress. Welp, ( Read more... )

Today was awesome. It was exactly what I needed. I am mostly restored. Massage, manicures, and time with my parents. Doesn't get much better than that if you ask me.

I'm glad that I'm putting myself first. Getting my condo in actual working order needs to be a priority. I don't think living off TV dinners forever is sustainable. And besides, I miss ( Read more... )

I cannot believe I actually slept for more than 8 hours. Granted I still woke up at 3am per the usual, but I went back to sleep until my alarm went off at 6:30am. Checked the weather. Determined I'm working from home, so went back to bed until 8am. OMG sweet relief.

It was beautiful. I feel wonderful.

And now, it's snowing. Why? Because I live in ( Read more... )

It's funny. I spent 4 months traveling around the country and I seriously wasn't sure if my travel bug would come back... well, it has. YAY.

I'm super excited about going to New Zealand in December. But before then, I think I'll go back to Spain. Haven't been there since 2004 and 15 years is far too long. I miss you Barcelona. So much. Maybe I can ( Read more... )