Wow, I haven't been on here in for fuckin' ever lol Biggest reason I'm back now is cause I've been avoiding going on myspace whenever possible cause it's rather addicting ^.^; So now I'll be posting my emotional shit here... sorry to all. You don't have to read this crappy random poo...

Not much exiting happening, which is probably why I'm feeling ( Read more... )

Not really my day... I woke up this morning with a sore neck that still wont allow me to easily bend it, I fell asleep after trying so hard to stay up when my mom woke me up this morning, I was late to my ortho appointment because of the previous item, I didn't get to talk to cheeto too much, I'm tired as hell- but can't fuckin' sleep, and to top ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking sick of all this double standard shit. God forbid I get one fucking bruise! 'When out in public act like a proper lady!' Why don't you act like a proper father? I understand the whole 'protect daughters with your life' bullshit, and it's fine and dandy for a while, but dammit it's not illegal to have a life not centered on your ( Read more... )

I'm not supposed to be on the internet, but no ones home right now. I have a 6-page report due friday, an appointment with my aunt for 'counseling' and I have to clean my room. Yay! Can you hear the sarcasm? Well I should go before I get bitched at again. Love, peace and chicken grease!

I haven't updated in a really long time, so I figured 'hey! why not?' Nothing too much happening, just my normal weekly insanities. Summer is only a month away and I can't wait. I'm pretty sure now that I hate and am sick of somewhere between 75-90% of Mel high's population. One of my most hated things is having to act pleasant toward someone you ( Read more... )

God knows I loved my cousin. I will always love him, even if only in memory, but it sickens me when people will not stop reminding me and bringing up feelings that I've been trying to control this past week. My father wont stop. Every little thing seems to remind him of our loss, and it brings all this pain and hurt to the surface. I don't handle ( Read more... )

The funeral was yesterday. It was packed full of people. All of them mourning my cousin.

Everyone talked about his smile, and how it radiated goodness and love. Sadly he will only smile in our memories from now on. When everyone talked about how loving, caring, and amazing he was, I kept crying. To think of someone, who touched so many people, ( Read more... )

Why in god's name did this happen? Too much fuckin' shit has happened in so little time and I need rest.

I was checked out early today, only to be told that my cousin Michael has done what I would not allow myself to do. What was it that could have driven him to do it. None of us know. We were all standing around crying, and wondering what made him ( Read more... )

Since the passage to middle school, I have been hanging on to the memories of my bestfriends from elementary. The friends who all promised to be friends forever. It sounds really gay, but they were the only ones really there for me when I was going through shit at home, and even though I never really told them about it, I could just be myself ( Read more... )

I don't think I'll be updating for a while cause I have nothing positive to say and my thoughts are too negative to put here.

I must say though, that I'm so fucking sick of all people's random shit. Everyone has their own slew of problems and it really isn't fun to get more when they aren't needed or wanted. Honestly there is no particular reason ( Read more... )