I feel like I'm out here
completely on my own

i feel so selfish
for wanting certain things in a relationship
I just want back some of what I put into us.
You could start with calling me back.

I left a genuinley sweet guy for you after you broke my heart.
show me it wasn't a mistake.

I just need some help here.

"there is at least one good thing in your life you can count on to always be there-
us"

hi broken promise.
what the fucks up.

"i don't know. it's not worth it to be bitter."
no.
i'm not bitter at all.

I wish my heart could pick a side.
I'm either really bitchy and bitter, convincing myself you never loved me at all-
which is realllly easy.

or i try to think ( Read more... )

Best Friend,
the one who was always there for me when no one else was,
and knows how to make me smile without saying a word,
I miss you.

P.S.
Remember That One Time?
That was awesome.

"When you love someone, it's because you know they're going to be there when times get hard.
Because you know they want more than anything to see you through it.
Because when shit goes down, you're going to want them right by your side,
not push them as far away from you as possible."

i'm a coniving bitch.
and i'll destroy anything to get what i want.
whether i know what i'm doing or not.
i'm interested to see how i'm going to deal with this.
probably pretend like i couldn't care less, as usual.
ah. but the catch is.
i care more than anything.

no one could ever take your place dear.
you're going to have to remember that here pretty soon ( Read more... )

 well sure i am angry about how she acts and treats me
and i do know that i'm doing better than her
and that i'm a better person
and am going to accomplish more than she could ever hope to

but it still really hurts to have yor own mother say those things.

I've never been angrier.
Ever.

Sure I'll be supportive.
 I'll help her pack and support her ass out the door.

I really need to get this one off my chest.
But apperantly everything I've said on MySpace has been directly relayed back to my parents?
And frankly,
none of the people I converse with on a daily basis can even begin to understand where i'm coming ( Read more... )

aka
two drunken virgins.

I so needed this weekend.
and the sunshine.
cold as it was, it brought me out of a negative state.

oh.
no one but you dear
can make my heart skip a beat 
when you look at me the way you do.


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What's the point in growing up
and growing old,
if you just grow tired? 

 that's all really.