Had a wee bit of a crying episode this morning. Some times, it just builds up to overflowing that I can never hide what I'm feeling. That I am, in essence, emotionally naked at all times. It can get very frustrating that, no matter how subdued I try to be, no matter how hard I try to pretend, try to act vaguely normal... I fail. I think that ( Read more... )

So, I'm going to the second funeral of my life today. Charles brother died last week Wednesday, and we're driving over to Pullman this morning for the service. I only met his brother once, but he was a sweet kid (only 21) and I wish I could have known him better, had a better basis for the stories Charles tells. I can't imagine what his mother ( Read more... )

I'm a size 6 now.
Which equates to a small.

I can not truly comprehend this. Never expected to get below a medium.

So weirded out.

But, oh so pleased!

ok. So, there is a conversation I have had repeatedly over the last several months, and it is driving me nuts, and pissing me off a little ( Read more... )

1. Grab the nearest book ( Read more... )

So, it's 4:15am, and i'm on my bike cruising down to the gym to work out. And, if we're being embarrassingly honest, it doesn't even feel early to me anymore. in fact, on those rare occasions i sleep in until *gasp* 7-8asm, i feel like i used to feel when i slept until 1-2pm. sort of shy and guilty, and like i've wasted too much time in sleep. ( Read more... )

Hiked Mt. Si today in 3.5 hours round trip, including .5 hour stop at top for lunch.

Feeling pretty bad-ass.

Did squats for the first time yesterday, and thus my thighs were hurting before I even started hiking. (ok, hurting a lot. -laugh-)

I wonder how fast I could have gone if I weren't starting out in pain?
I'll have to check some time...

I've always been ( Read more... )

here are a few favorite moments from today ( Read more... )

i don't post nearly often enough. one of my favorite aspects of LJ is going back years later and seeing what i was going through/thinking about at any given time. and here i am, going though an amazing personal journey, and just mostly having a really good time of life, and i'm not posting at all so i can see it later! i guess it might have ( Read more... )