to summarize last year all i have to say is i'm not the same person, i've been through to much and too many chemicals. and basically... FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also... i need a menthol.. i shal take care of that now. bye.

i'm so lonely i could scream ( Read more... )

so mixed up. have i changed?
am i drugged up?
or just deranged?
i feel a hunger deep inside
i cannot fill although i've tried
it hurts amazingly to live
there isn't much i'm willing to give,
to make this world a better place
i don't even wanna show my face
i am a walking talking mess
i'm psysically ill and depressed.
i'll take my water laced with pills
but ( Read more... )

come for the week
you can sleep in my bed
and pass through my life
like a dream through my head
it will be easy...

i miss you

"death is not a good alternative. i know very well that life is sacred." she said

"but you want to go now to the spirit world?" asked the other

" yes, " she replied "it's better than this"

"i cannot let you die i'm sorry..." the other told her somberly

"so be it" she said "and so it is done."

she flew to her songs for they'd done her no wrongs until now
she wondered how could this happen? oh, how?

so then she felt she'd flown so high
she must crash down
or she'll never fly
so again came the cleansing tears
but they rinsed away
her hopes and fears... ...

she cried what is this pain inside??
all i know is it aches so bad
i might wanna die sometime ( Read more... )

beneath the fragile angst of fright slept a beauty who spun the night
she shoved under her eyes her plight... ...

once upon a time long before clocks made sense a little girl talked to rabbits.
she played in the grass and buried the dead in the sand.
she only knew what she'd been through and that was all she could understand
she took care of lost ( Read more... )

in the depths of self hatred and solitude
burning desire to make you into one of me.
crying out like some deranged zombie.
turquoise eyes sense light departing.
skaking. icey winds blow straight through me
you my love, found a better way
coping astray from all we built
the nightmarish love we slaved away on
i cry out: "take me. want me... leave me

you got out now i think you've changed ( Read more... )

one last chance i didn't take ( Read more... )